Friday, March 22, 2019

Ugh, This Morning.

8:57 a.m. I didn't sleep last night. The air felt so stiff and uncomfortable. I know it's pretty wordly but, so not that great, but I feel like I 'had' to have a fan..or some kind of cool air moving on me, in order to sleep. The air has to feel like it's moving. It can't feel stiff. Stiff. Uncomfortable. Ya get it.

God have mercy.

Mom offered a solution to get a fan at first. Then she decided (and bear with me, her ceiling fan currently only runs with the lights on) we could just remove the light bulbs and voila. Air. 

I'm still pretty tired. Okay, a lot tired. I maybe only managed a few hours of REM sleep, and Mom was surprised still to see me up early, but I'd also feel kinda guilty for sleeping in to the afternoon. While that may be the norm at home, I'd be a little embarrassed to do that here.

I might still sleep, anyway. I need it. -_- AND my allergies are in full swing. Itchy water eyes, on the light side, and a burny itchy nose I keep rubbing. Not a great start to the weekend, but I don't regret the family time. :) Just so ya know. Mom loved that she surprised me by inviting me over for the weekend. It's nice.

While I'm still awake to remember, while there are parts of dreams I'd rather forget, some were worth recording. It mostly just involved wandering around shops. And there are two parts of the dream related to this.

So in one shop they had a 'really' old piano on display, and I dropped in some coins, like a donation. For some reason, I thought that was what people did. It was so old, as I noted through the crack of the partially warped/open lid, that there was a prone shriveled-looking skeleton literally infused into the old decayed strings with dingy brown looking cobwebs.

The owner walked over...and he was furious. Balding brown haired kinda heavy-set guy in a blue-ish gray chequed-polo shirt. Kinda short, but not shorter than me. For some reason, though the memory is faint, I'd say he could've passed for some 'James Gandolfini in the Sopranos lookalike of a lookalike.'

He came over, complaining about my disrespect of the corpse, and said it was just like 'someone coming over and doing...' and he tapped one of the old keys on the piano, barely moving one of the many dead strings.

I mean, I apologized profusely in a very quiet and mousy way, only to have him respond, with his shock, "I don't like your tone with me." Then him being fed up and walking off. Which didn't even make sense to me in the dream because I couldn't have been more small-voiced and apologetic.

There was a coin slot in the lid of the piano and for some reason, I went to drop a quarter and a couple dimes in again.

His partner, a mid-set white guy with some short gingery-hair maybe, looked at me with a great deal of pity. I handed him the coins like 'Would you...?' [Take this] and so he did.

Anyway, I think that's what happened. I'm having trouble making up my mind whether or not I had initially, in the start, actually tapped the key or did drop in a coin. Oh well.

I know I visited a piano in another store before this one. There was a rusted blue oblong looking key sitting atop of it that I tapped for sure.

Anyway, in the next store, and it doesn't sound like much, I knocked over some eyeshadows and brushes off the shelf and spent that part of the dream just trying to clean it up.

And now and then a passerby and two would help, despite the fact that they'd come away with the powder now staining their clothes. One of them was even wearing a black track top and seemed slightly amused over the fact that it was powder-stained now.

So yeah, that's pretty much it. I need sleep. lol.

12:16 p.m. I didn't end up sleeping. I played with the puppy and finished Avengers: Infinity War. Her reaction to the ending 'They better not have let it end like that?' More or less. Lol. I felt the same the first time I watched it.

We're making plans for today. The auction is definitely a possibility, which is awesome. Mom's looking into the drive in. We're going to get Bella's first shots at the vet! This is Bella, by the way:

We also may be looking at vaccum cleaners and storage boxes.

Today, Mom is also politely sitting through a TNT marathon of Supernatural. I could put it on Netflix, commercial free, but...they have their own account here now and I'd hate to spam it with my show. I save it for Mom's room, not the living room. Lol.

Also been chatting up dudes on OkCupid. Working on getting more social. I'm still hoping to find the right guy, someday. Lol.

Looking to be a fun weekend. <3

12:34 p.m. Mom gave me a choice between bingo or the auction. I chose the auction. I think I'd have more fun. :P

12:50 p.m. So my remote desktop works a little slower cause of the distance, but it's still an improvement over struggling with it on a small screen vs. my Chromebook. :)))

12:53 p.m. By the way, Mom's almost got pot pies ready. Yum! <3

2:48 p.m. Ate. Played with the pupper. Surfed social media..quite heavily. Played Solitaire and Monopoly on mobile. Watching Pitbulls and Paroles. A chill day before we go head out for errands. ^_^ <3 P.S. My face is really breaking out these days. O.O

Thursday, March 21, 2019

Concert Tickets! Whirlwind of Feels!

12:01 p.m. Once again, it seems I don't have a lot planned for today. I'm gonna see if I'm interested in making anything new on Secondlife, after all. I'm also waiting eagerly for when I'll get my chance to buy concert tickets later today! :3 I researched which seats would give me the best view for my price range and everything. :3 First concert and all.

12:29 p.m. Took a bathroom break. Started some ramen. Today my Secondlife store needs another overall. So soon, too. -_- It's just, I need some space. I'm feeling...creative..too. <3

12:47 p.m. Finished my food. I have light unexplained scratches on my chromebook, but oh well.

2:17 p.m. Surprisingly, and only temporarily, bittersweet news. Start with the good news. WE GOT THE TICKETS!!!!

It looks like the concert is officially on. 

And from where I'm sitting, this is approximately how they'll look:

Hey. Ant-sized smøl bean is better no smøl bean. :))))

I'm partially excited. Partially coming down from a huge state of panic (and not the good kind.)

I only had enough in my bank for the two tickets. I, naively, selected insurance..since an extra charge wasn't made plain, and no changes to my total until AFTER checkout. An extra 16 plus dollars, that I don't have. 

Even if I took all the cash in my bank, I'm still short five bucks to pay it.

Thankfully, it's a separate and non-immediate charge. 

Rick usually gives me a 20 to help me out each week. And she's willing to drive me to the bank to drop it in there and try to save me from a dreaded overdraft. Asdsghdgshdgshdghdg!

IF in the unusual event Rick shows up early enough, maybe around 4 or 5, we can get this over with today. If not, we'll have to wait until tomorrow and I'll just have to sit on my thumbs and hope they don't charge me by then. -_-

I've tried contacting them to cancel it. The email so far in unanswered. 

Even if they did, from what I googled, it looks like they can cancel it. but there is a dreadful 'no refund' policy.

If that is the case, I CAN file a claim with my bank to block the potential charge and hope for the best. 

I should probably do that sooner, rather than later. 

Either way I just want the fastest way right now to avoiding over-drafting my bank. Which is an extra thirty dollar charge. Not fun. I don't need that kinda drama in my life, please. :P

So yeah. For the moment. It's a bittersweet....moment. But only for the moment.

Still thankful to God and praising the Lord. I made a mistake. I'm sorry. Please help. :) Oi vey. I need to like, try not to worry.

And probably not be so assuming of the outcomes of this situation.

That'd be for the best.

Fun fact: I was literally gonna go for the two seats 'next' to the ones I wound up buying...but they SOLD seconds later. 

Quick, quick, quick. 

Also, I mistook what insurance was for. Why I selected it in the first place, besides thinking, naively, that there was no charge.

I thought it meant it secured the tickets I was buying in checkout before someone else could snag them, and clearly not. Not bright, I know. My brain was kinda wired on the fact that the tickets were clearly going fast. And a bit greedy. So yeah, this was all my own flub here (apologies again) and just gotta hope God can get me through, even if I don't really deserve it. In Jesus name, Amen!

Trusting God just makes me feel that much better. Like a blanket of calm hovering over my tense gut, if that makes sense.

EDIT: No. They weren't sold after all. :/ Certainly looked like it at the time! :P
Siggghhhhh. I'll be fine. I'll be fine. I'll be just fine.

There's always a bright side at the end of every trial and tribulation. Every situation. It always gets better. And it really does help to know that. Praise and thank the Lord!

April helped, too. By the way. I was making a huge deal over something that..isn't...a huge deal. It's an overdraft. It happens. We hope it doesn't 'have' to happen. But we'll be fine either way. Stop panicking.

2:50 p.m. And another reason to think positively. all part of a story. Even the bad stuff. Like, this is something I could just look back on and shake my head at. It's all part of the story, the good and the bad. It's all part of the journey. And I have faith in Christ, in God, that everything will work out in the end.

3:08 p.m. Okay, so God is just straight up amazing. You can't tell me He didn't pull something amazing here. Sigh. Of. Relief!

Was literally jumping a little and punching a fist in the air at Jesus. :P

Thank and Praise God/Jesus!

So! I called the insurance place and they said that due to a rare error, the insurance did not process.

Therefore, it is cancelled. 

I should NOT expect to get charged. And we're all good here, it seems. And I'm pretty certain I still got the tickets cause this is a totally separate company than ticketmaster. So. NO overdraft. NO insurance. NO worries. It's cancelled. I should be okay, now. Thank GOD! He's done it, again.

Now let's chill and try to not make that kind of mistake again, hmm?

P.S. Legend, by twentyonepilots, is in my head. Woooooooottt!!! The day just got better, yo. That's what happens when you trust God with your circumstances, people. It all comes out okay.

3:40 p.m. Watching Arrested Development with friends.

4:54 p.m. Today is a blessed day. Congrats, beans! :P

5:46 p.m. Mom invited me to come over for the weekend. I almost declined. It's that..loner side of me. But a voice inside said this was a thing I should do. Meant to be for a reason.  A blessing, even. So I agreed, and glad I did. She said she's coming later tonight and I look forward to it. A real break from the mundane days I've been experiencing lately.

Also, Scarlett is walking these days! :D

I need to pack an overnight bag, for sure. Can't wait to try out my Chromebook outside the house for once. Especially to see what the remote desktop feature is like over there.

God is good. Blessed days ahead, in Jesus mighty name. God is able to do abundantly above all we ask or think!

*Kinda wants to go hang out with Mom at the Goodwill outlet this weekend* I don't know. :P

6:52 p.m. Goodwill is approved. You're talking like a pound of clothing for less than three bucks, soo.... :)))

Showered, dressed, packed and good to go. Mom was oddly specific by saying she'd be here around 7:45 p.m. So I got some time to kill? *sips tea after brushing her teeth*

7:25 p.m. Rob and April left just now for Dawn's. 

FOR SOME REASON (and now that GIF above is totally accurate even though it was posted before the event.) 

I shared a link to a free game on humble bundle. To April. AND IT INCLUDED A SCREENSHOT OF HER CONVERSATION WITH ME ABOVE. It was kind of awkward, but I had to explain it was for journaling purposes, but 'thankfully' she took it well.

Looking forward to Mama/Daughter time this weekend. I could use some family time, couldn't I? :))) God knows, am I right?

11:22 p.m. Laying in bed with Mom snoring beside me. She really did show up close to 7:45 p.m. lol. We got some McDonalds on the way, her treat. I got some nuggets. And the forgot my buffalo sauce, but we got it. Her some sandwiches. They forgot my small fries and she was a bit peeved, but we went back and got them. I'd forgotten them entirely, but she remembered. Anyway, S'all good. 

We came home. Watched some of Avengers Infinity War (and she made it partially through) before she needed to sleep since a headache was kicking in.

I put on Supernatural, which is still going, and played with her puppy whose in her playroom (formerly a walk-in closet. She's really find of biting hands. O.O But Oi, what a day!

I finally got around to posting and Instagram post I wanted to wait until getting the tickets to display. I'm just not on my iPod enough to remember these days. The Chromebook is so much cooler, lol. It was just a screenshot of an earlier entry about me announcing that we were getting tickets. No big deal.

It's kinda funny. God works in mysterious ways. I only posted less than a month ago that I had the very sudden impulse that I wanted to see a twentyonepilots concert. And even started daydreaming, then actually dreaming of it, in that short period of time. Now, here we are. :)))

Mom's even talked of us getting a hotel since it falls on a Sunday that day and she needs to work, which adds a really nice bonus to this very exciting, blessed, venture.

While I love that these keyboard keys are pretty, maybe kinda, quiet. I had to turn the screen brightness up to see the keys though and I'm hoping that won't wake her. Eep.

Also I had a brownie with the nice elder lady that lives here, and we made light chat, I forget her name. Cause I'm not great at remembering names. Even if I have seen her quite a few times before.

The puppy's bell collar keeps jingling cause she's up and excited and it's so cute. Oi.

Long entry. I should cut this short at some point, eh? I'm delighted to say this day was far from ordinary, and thank God for family, cause they make the day a lot less boring, too. :P

God night. God Bless, Jesus loves, lives, saves! Woot!

Wednesday, March 20, 2019

Hm...Long Post. Again.

12:10 p.m. Well, my day isn't starting out with a whole lot of direction. I don't have a major Secondlife project to continue, like with the skyboxes. I do have some chores...maybe that's something?

I stayed up so late until early morning that the sleepy HEADACHE kicked in. And then I slept until just recently. I'm getting more anxious than I should about this concert thing. I can't buy tickets until tomorrow, or maybe even the day after tomorrow and there's no telling if the few useful seats I'll be looking at will be there by then. I'll be nonetheless thankful just to go, in the same token, so I should just follow my own advice and stop worrying.

Hm....maybe I should make a list of potential projects? I certainly wouldn't mind it.

Speaking of: I'm still super blessed and thankful to God I updated my blurb yesterday. x.x And successfully. Cause previously it had been only updated to February 11. I've made it to one full year and beyond on that journal, so praise and thank God for that.

Okay, here goes my project ideas:
  • Make that snippet of the song I heard last week in my dreams. 

The one that, at this time, doesn't currently exist.

'Sugar, sugar/tastes so sweet/Try'na knock me off my feet/Your sugar leaves me breathless/your sugar leaves me breathless.'

Relatively short, but the trick will be altering my voice, which is very different from the one singing this small snippet, to sound the way I heard it in my dream. Very bubblegum pop, would be the word I'd use. At least it was a female vocal.

  • Continue my gacha project.
Since my store renovation on Secondlife, I've tossed around doing the idea of as many as 40 gachas. At the moment I can only fit about 10 on my virtual land (but I plan on re-renovating for better space anyway, seeing as I impulse bought in the first place, a virtual building I fell in love with.) And I think about four of those gachas are already done.

Incoming Secondlife lingo: My advents are done and set for December. Caspervend redeliveries, in the hundreds, are already taken care of. So those are some major projects already behind me, praise and thank the Lord.

  • Chores.
I have a daily task list I made last week. I was on it...for some days. And then slowly fell off of it. It'd be great to get back on the horse with it and regain household productivity. (What use is it do slog in front of the computer desperately seeking one thing to another to do on the thing.)

  • Exercise.
It'd honestly be more motivating if my bike were in working condition. But the tire, which didn't properly fit in the first place (though I'm no less thankful to Mom for trying, in the first place) is flat. And funnily enough, I had a weird dream about trying to seek out a new bike tire. I REALLY need to take a picture of the size I need. x.x

I mean, I know I could walk, but biking is so much easier and more fun for me, believe it or not. And I suppose it doesn't help things that my diet hasn't exactly improved in the past few months.

Can I just stop a sec and admit how fun it is for me to be typing this right now? To not only make what would ordinarily be a goal list, but adding explainers in this fashion? Let's continue.

  • Writing
Oh, if only I had a plot I cared about continuing. My google drive is chocked full of unfinished stories. Which honestly deep down, I'm pondering just making a blog to release them to the public domain, with full, total, and complete rights to the works, and let someone else take over it. x.x 

That actually sounds like an amazing idea.

Because they aren't the ones I've gotten passionate about, like The Dream Doctor (for all its terrible editing and cheesy writing) and The Life The Deserved which I've yet to finish full editing. And not fully motivated to do so.

I'm kinda wanting my next big thing. That next big story that I'll just be SO into it, that...what's that? I'll actually FINISH it!

And I know. I know. I shouldn't just avoid writing if I know I won't finish the story. But that seems to be the case. That, and I don't know what I actually want to write about. I wanted a story about my dreams. It happened. I wanted my own medieval fairy tale. It's written. So what's the next big thing?

I pondered the idea of a 'celebrity character' based story, or even having to do with reality tv. Cause my brain goes there a lot these days, and I have written a story or two like that. But it didn't stick. I don't know. We'll see. It becomes more and more awkward to call myself a writer, when at the moment I'm not actually 'writing.'

  • Make a blog for public domain distribution of my unfinished stories.
Adding it to my list, because I really love that idea. <3

  • Practice drawing on a daily basis.
This goal is pretty low on the totem pole or priorities. I'm an artist, I know. But at the moment, I'm not hugely excited with the idea of drawing.

  • New Secondlife creations.
Listing for the sake of listing, but also a task low on the priority list and I'm less than excited by.

To recap so far:
  • Dream song snippet.
  • Gacha project.
  • Chores.
  • Exercise.
  • Writing.
  • New Blog for Public Domain Distribution.
  • Practice Drawing.
  • New Secondlife Creations.
All this, and the main thing that's missing is my willpower. Which doesn't do me a whole lot of good.

I'm kinda happy to be sitting here blogging though, so there's a plus. Even though at this point, I'm kind of becoming a downer.

I've been making a lot of projects over the past couple years and they've gotten knocked down and done most of the time. And don't get me wrong, I'm grateful to God for that. But, I do carry the realization that living from one goal to the next isn't really what's best for my life...maybe? Maybe it depends on the goal. I don't know.

I'm kinda lacking direction. God is in all that I do, and that's my belief. I'll say that. But not waking up and knowing exactly how I want to spend my day, a thing I generally enjoy doing, has not been happening a lot. So I'm spending my day either doing nothing or coasting from one minor task to the next until the day ends.

You might say I've backed myself into a bit of a rut.

Serve the Lord. 

My heart urges me. And I feel like I do, in my own kinda way. Especially with the praising and thanking of God and got my Gospel message sitting in full view in the taskbar.

I know I'm supposed to be going out and talking to people about it, but you know...that involves actually talking to people. And that's what God wants for my life. 

And I am pretty stuck and dug into my belief that I'm just not the social type, not am I confident I want to be. Not that I don't like people. I'm just not big into making conversations with people I don't know. Much of the time. I'm just being kinda in the comfort zone here....which isn't always the best thing...?


God loves me. He cares for me. May He have mercy on my soul. Amen, in Jesus name.

There. I was thinking it every time I went on about me lacking direction for my life, and I wrote it. Said and done. :P God bless us, every one. Mwuah!

Final note for the moment. I would love some boiled peanuts. I'm leaving the hot dogs and bread for the roomies, but I've had my fill on the ramen on a daily basis for the moment. x.x

12:58 p.m. So, the big winner today seems to be writing. Even just writing this blog, I want to be sitting here on my little Chromebook and writing.

I'm also considering adding my wild collection of GIFs to my Google Drive, even though I'm kinda overly protective of what I stick in there. O.O I like using the least space I can, clearly. It's chocked full of those unfinished writings I mused about earlier.

*fusses for a bit to get Gyazo to work properly on my Chromebook.*

>.< There doesn't SEEM to be any overidentifying information I need to crop out, so that helps.

1:17 p.m. Well, okay. Boiled peanuts are not happening. I'll live. April's having one of her days. -_- Depression is a kicker.

Currently hanging out in Rob's room with Rob, Dawn, and April. And a cat named Minxy. :P

Randomly decided to surf adsense and analytics. The conclusion is that this is one little obscure blog in the web universe that doesn't really need adsense with as small as audience as I have. lol. Partially why I decided to re-introduce GIF reactions to my blog. *.*

1:41 p.m. I got over 700 GIFS uploading to my Google Photos, since it seems like my new thing is to be blogging on my lightweight and fun Chromebook and I want easy access to my reaction GIFS.

2:03 p.m. Peanuts achieved. Shows how much I know. :P Thank you, God. And April. :P

2:41 p.m. Well, that was done. A lot of calories, to be sure. And took almost 40 minutes to finish. Sweet tea is a nice accompany-ment...or whatever the word is. Watching Youtube. RN just another twetyonepilots themed video, and still pumped up for the POSSIBILITY of the concert in June. I say possibility, cause nobody knows what God really has planned. So it's a happy wishful thinking.  :P

My GIFS are uploaded to Google photos, and I'm kinda It actually dated the photos of when I saved them, which I wasn't expecting...and I kinda like it. :)))

I've been using the triple-smile emoticon a lot, lately. You can probably guess whether my entry was written on my iPod or my Chromebook, come to think of it, because the iPod one will be chocked full of emojis, whereas the Chromebook one would have smilies. :))) Such as.

Um...I'm REALLY in a journal-writing mood, today. :P Even added to my free-writing one a bit last night, to my great satisfaction.

5:12 p.m. While I'm surfing through my GIFS, for now all in one collective google folder, mind you, I love that it's actually seemingly dancing to twentyonepilots. Yes, some GIFS I have involve dancing.

Such as.

Concert hype feels. :P

3:00 p.m. I needed to get off google photos before I go GIF spamming. :P

3:33 p.m. The question is bared just how much useless repetitive internet things I can do before I actually get up and decide to do something useful. *has to get used to hitting 'alt + click' on Chromebook to right-click things* especially when it comes to correcting typos, lol.

5:01 p.m. Talk about overdoing things...though in this sense, it's in a good way. I decided to get my laundry folded and hung, which I did. Also drying my white rug the cats pooped and peed on. >.> After a nice bleaching.

And my bed, which has been on a nearly broken leg for a long time now and had countless efforts to just keep it together, only to come loose again.

This time, I couldn't put it together again. So I had to rip and screw it apart. I took off the front and back end. All apart.

The room is tiny with a tiny corner to the hallway, so taking it outside in one piece wasn't an option. I kept the bottom part of the bed frame, propped up on risers (Thank God for those, tiny space for storage, but still useful and better than none at all) and the rest is ditched.

I need to drag it to the fire pit, but I'm exhausted and sweaty at the moment.

It was hard and awkward, but it finished. O.O Thank. God. Praise. The. Lord! Like, seriously.

And as a bonus, my bed is the better for it. No more wobbling. For now. My bedside fan reaches me SOOOO much better! After all that hard work, it felt amazing to just lay there.

I want to take a picture...but not right now. If at all. I don't know, lol. This was hard work, but at the same time added a little something interesting to my day. So, I'm grateful for that.

P.S. Rob's room is connected to mine, separated by a wall. I only wish doing all this quietly was possible.

And most of my stuff that used to be stored under the bed is now 'kinda' neatly piled under my desk in the corner of the room, including two strange bags of cotton stuffing. O.o

And stuff I bought to 'life hack' replace the pen tablet of my nibs to a wacom tablet I now almost never use because it's so jittery and laggy. :/ No less thankful for it though, don't get me wrong. Getting kinda off topic.

I did enjoy what I made with it at the time

5:24 p.m. So it's back to the digital life, I guess? Surfing social media? I don't know. :P Watching Supernatural vintage episodes. Now on season 4 with Castiel's introductory episodes. :)))

 5:49 p.m. So. I just had two Jimmy Dean sandwiches and decided to come chill out in my room. Fun thing about blogging is sometimes I can actually tell how long ago it was I actually ate. I'll be honest though, that wasn't so much hunger eating *rubs sudden eye sting from allergies* as it was boredom. Which, is not a good thing. I need to get on board with life. And fast. >.> Just sayin.'

P.S. Another day where I'm still more mentally stable than my episodes weeks ago. So it's a nice victory.

9:39 p.m. I slipped...and I'll be okay. I tried to go to sleep but not with huge success. The cats have taken over my bed lately since my curtain fell down and they get a nice outside view to sleep with. Me, I have my eye mask. *.* also, the roomies made me baked potatoes to eat. Later!

Tuesday, March 19, 2019

Well, The Day Is Pretty Average.

3:03 p.m. It's tempting to stay in bed all day thinking, 'What's really the point of getting up and doing anything today?' I know God has a marvelous plan. Let's just open with that. Sigh. I spent another day sleeping in until noon. I didn't sleep well last night. I wasn't very comfortable for some reason.

I got my blurb book satisfactorily updated, and it stayed updated this time, and backed up. I ate ramen and a couple hot dogs. With milk. Not healthy, I know.

April had a rough start to the day. She kept trying to call the therapist office to make an appointment and they kept hanging up on her, again and again. Really not cool for a mental health facility to do that to someone with mental health issues. People should have the sense to know that. I hope they have a good reason. I don't know the situation. Whether it was a malicious intent or not, so I apologize.

ANYWAY! She got fed up and decided to drive down to Bartow and confront them in person. Which is a good idea when you have transportation and get someone you really need on the phone, on the phone. Here's just hoping everything goes non-confrontationally.

I played some DMK today as usual and I think I need to finish up my laundry. x.x I also plan on getting a bit of Secondlife stuff done, though I don't know about creating, per se. After almost two weeks of heavy skybox work, I may be a little burnt out.

The dog puked on the couch almost an hour ago. I cleaned it up and tried to console her. It wasn't her fault or anything. Not like she puked on purpose. Or maliciously. Still the poor bab was shaking. So I covered her up with a big blanket for some nice security, which she took to nicely, and now she is still under 'said' blanket...with me..curled up under my raised knee as I write this entry on my Chromebook.

Still very excited about the potential upcoming concert. So much so that I tried to get myself to calm down and stop thinking about it so much last night, lol.

Bladder is still on the fritz. -_-

I tried out my new notebook and loving it already, though I swapped the fine tip pen (which bled both through and on the page) for a nice pink gel pen which already happened to be in my room, that also happened to match this very pink notebook, which I need a picture of. Really looking forward to, and hoping to, filling it up with my many constant and repetitive freewriting thoughts.

And if legible, perhaps convert it to print one day? O.o

Sounds like April's back. I heard a car door slam. If so, that seemed kinda quick. Maybe not.

3:29 p.m. April has returned. Apparently, inclimate weather was to blame for her getting hung up on a bunch and not a fault of the facility. My apologies again. Also, April seems to be in a much better mood than when she left.

We've learned our elderly neighbor Mytriss...I don't recall how to spell her name, passed away at the end of last year. We'd passed her house on a number of occasions speculating if everything was alright, or if she still lived, but finally April decided to go over and ask because there are new people living there now. God rest her soul, in Jesus name, Amen! <3

I got a Secondlife task I was meaning to get done today, done, kind of average/boring thing about making a notecard for an event I'm currently involved in.

5:30 p.m. April made tacos and tea. Yum. I've been on a social network spree today and reconnecting with beloved neopets friends after a while. <3 Watching 'A Day At A Time' I think that's the name, with April. That Netflix original that doesn't seem to shy away from a lot of social justice topics.

6:13 p.m. Not much new. :P Just updating. And once again to be doing so live on a Chromebook, instead of on my iPod where it could wait for weeks before making it to the blog. Only downside is I don't have my massive GIF collection to supplement this entry. I'll live. :P

8:25 p.m. Night time allergies kicked in. Took some allergy meds. Now I want to attempt sleep. G'night, folks. God bless. Jesus loves, lives, saves, folks. <3

Monday, March 18, 2019

Happy News Today. Also, Long Post.

Okay, but my mood:

Mood enough, for ya?


 TØP. In June. Orlando. Asgahsghasghagsha. YASSS~!!! 

Thanks, Mom! <3

Sheeeeee is giving me money on either Thursday or Friday!

I can't even. I can only odd. I finally get to see them, ant-sized, in person. :D Yes, I said ant-sized.

We're talking somewhere in this general vicinity of things:

I'll 'gladly' take 'ant-sized' over nothing. :) Cause my first concert. To my favorite band. And has so far involved me digging out a camcorder I haven't touched in maybe a year or longer to charge, cause my iPod is not great for recording things for a long period of time. x.x

And part of me feels a little silly, cause they're just...people. Humans. Doing what they love. Always good to remember that. At best it'll be a nice bonding time with my Mom, too. :D EXCIITTED!

But hey. Started from spamming the aux cord, now we're here. :P

By the way, as far as I know, tickets are really hard to get to their shows so I'm so thankful to God, blessed, to still have a chance to get in some this early, ya know, late March, before they all sell out. Hopefully I still can get them by the end of the week. o.o Whatever God makes happen, ya know.

Best news I've had in a while though. I'm internal squeal. 

Mama don't even know what this means to me. :3

I finished up my 24 skyboxes project for advent, so that also has me giddy. Thinking of just chilling out most of the day. My thoughts have been better than in previous weeks. But my sleep has been off. I keep waking up every few hours again a night.

Speaking of the concert though, I did dream of going like before the show started and meeting Tyler in person. He like, grabbed my phone and did something with it, I don't remember. It was days ago. 

I also meant to write this on my Chromebook, on the couch, where it's comfy, but got so into this post that I wound up writing it on my desktop, lol.

Anyway, if there's anymore honorable mentions...besides the fact that I changed up the look of this blog. I'll let ya, know. God willing. >.>

By the way, I wanted to post the skyboxes. For my own reference.

Took less than two weeks to do them all. Generally anywhere from 2-5 hours-ish each depending on the level of work needed. Longer hours if windows or doors were involved. 

These aren't posted in order. 

Starts from practically a blank canvas of white walls and floors (almost like a blank sheet of paper in digital form) and it turns into...what it turned into. I used a lot of references from google.

The last one, the runway, was from a short while back and took a LOT longer than the others, like an entire night, but I wanted to include it in the set, anyway. All of them [except the last one] are unfurnished, low prim (that's Secondlife lingo) and mostly digital painted. Sometimes, on a few occasions especially regarding floors, I relied on pre-made floor/wall textures and altered the lighting, shade, bump, color, etc. But it's mainly digital painted. It didn't take hours to slap a pre-made texture on there. It took work to make it look natural.

Windows and doors are PAINTED. Some painted glass, so it looks like you're panning over a view outside.

One of the best parts of this was practicing something I was not hugely familiar with before. I learned about lighting. I learned how to digitally paint windows and doors! But mainly the lighting thing.

Apologies if this all sounds boasty, by the way. It's a God-given blessing to be able to do any art and stuff and it's something I really enjoy spending time doing. ;) 

Okay, now it should be done. :P

4:42 p.m. Baking up some 'fried' chicken. I would've fried it the old fashion way, but we have no oil. Ah, well. We're maybe more than twenty minutes to go for some delicious chicken goodness anyway, so...God willing. Huzzah. Got the laundry going and watching a classic Supernatural Episode, Mystery Spot. :) 

The buddies have no idea I'm cooking, by the way, so hopefully they find it to be a pleasant surprise. P.S. I AM finally writing this entry on my Chromebook, although my eyes may need to adjust. Compared to my giant computer monitor, the text is super uber tiny on here. O.O

4:48 p.m. Okay, more like 40 minutes. x.x Hang in there. I....didn't know it quite right. All the coating melted off cause the chicken was frozen. I'm not a chef, okay. Egads.

5:09 p.m. Seems kinda like an obvious solution, but I adjusted my font size. MUCH better. :) Also, can we just appreciate the fact that for once I'm posting this directly to my blog and NOT leaving it waiting to publish on my iPod?

I also need to, at some point, gather up the willpower to update my blurb with this mass of entries I've slicked in, lately. >.> Just saying.

9:29 p.m. Chicken was great. Friends...was eh. They liked it. I just mean April was in kind of a mood tonight.

I tried to sleep hours ago, but my bladder staged a protest. Will have to try again shortly. At least I got to cuddle with cats.

P.S. The other day I got a notebook. With actual 'lines' in it. So when/if God willing my first one fills up, I got that one good and raring to go.

New Chromebook still running great. Very satisfactory.

Been drinking a lot of soda lately. Eek.

Lotta carbs, too. And chocolate. And sugar, just in general.

Moved my bed in my room the other day and it made my room look SO much bigger.

Still need to make that song that happened in my dreams last week. When I'm alone, preferably. Much voice altering will be required to get it just right.

SO glad I'm actually, legitimately, remembering what's been going on the past some days since I last wrote.

Oven mitt fell and got trapped behind the oven tonight. It's still there.

I've spent a lot of lindens. Over twenty bucks worth. Some for creating. Close to half. And some for other stuff. Back to being pretty broke.

Thank God Mom came through on the concert tickets, cause honestly I failed at saving for them, myself. :/ Still...happy news, right?! :D


Been listening to 'Be Concerned' by twentyonepilots on repeat a lot. Especially in the shower. It plays like four or five times in a row by the time I'm done.

Browsed my old journals. A lot of that stuff is still awkward.

Socializing with family has improved, but not by a whole lot.

Not eating healthy, or exercising.

My head is in an okay space most of the time, now.

I really should, hope to, update my blurb book. Cause it's way behind on entries, just like my blogger was.


I got an FFQ on Neopets today and practically took the whole day to decide what I wanted. The neopet reminds me of Spyro, and is aptly named 'Spyr0s' since, it wasn't taken.


This GIF and how it loops:


This is something that's made me smile a little, lately:

Long post is long. I had a lot to say. And share. And enjoy. God bless. Jesus loves, lives, saves.

Good night. :P :)))

All Glory, Praise, Thanks and all things be to almighty God on the highest forever and ever in Jesus name, amen. God is able to do above all we ask or think!

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