Wednesday, May 22, 2019

I'm Exhausted. Trying to Get The 'Adulting' Going.

2:20 p.m. I'm exhausted. As it says in the title.

No new job yet. Mom's waiting on a building to be finished at the end of June, then seeing about talking to HR is July about hiring me as there are concerns regarding nepotism.

Anna's waiting to see if there's a place that can fit me in at her job.

No co-op this week, that I know of yet according to Anna, as it was 30 bucks a basket which she doesn't have. Although, there is a memorial day 10 dollar basket thing, so I don't know. I'll have to talk to her about that.

Missed the call yesterday regarding a food stamp interview, so Dad left me his phone for today. I called and left...twice..because I was told by Dad I didn't leave the message right the first time. Hours later, when they still didn't call, Dad and I argued. I cried. We mended things.

I eventually called back, did the interview, and got approved. I let them know.

So that much is in the can. Something went right today, praise and thank the Lord. So we'll see how we work it out as a household from there, God willing.

However, most of the day, my body's physically gonna be recovering from the cry, as it does. Slightly burning eyes, slightly weighted chest feeling, and weird breathing. It passes.

Spent most of my savings, but hopefully that's going way down and has a chance to recover with this food stamps thing, as much of it went to groceries.

I'm considering going to Mom's for the weekend and giving myself a break from the huge recent shove into adulthood, and the pressure and drama coming with it, if I can. :I I asked if Mom was home. She said yes. I asked if I could come over this response of yet.

Still watching Kingdom Hearts cut scenes in order of title release. I'm around the middle of Kingdom Hearts 2, which is 13 hours long, so this alone could take a while. At least it's inoffensive content, which I find enjoyable.

I've all but lost my original routine I had set in motion back at the old place, and want to, when I can settle in enough, re-find that place again. Cause lately it's been back to a lot of aimless wandering through much of the day, just like things were pre-meditation frenzy at the beginning of April..which also slowed way down. :I

It's been hard, especially not having RL friends around to come to during the day, and/but I'm looking forward to finally pulling myself back on the horse.

I am thankful to God for a nice place to live in the meantime, which is better than being in the Ohio streets, or a sketchy homeless shelter. I'm safe. I'm in a place everyone is just as comfortable with me being at, so that works out.

Deep breath. Back to the Kingdom Hearts marathon.

All glory, praise, thanks, and all things be to God on the highest forever and ever in Jesus mighty name, God is able to do abundantly above all we ask or think.

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