Wednesday, August 15, 2018

Mini Update

4:40 p.m. There was a time where I posted about my life daily, even for a time every few hours or so lol. Now just writing a post the next day is considered a 'mini' update I guess.

I had a lot of intentions of going out bike riding today...and I just..didn't. My diet hasn't been much better today. Too much pasta and cheese lately...and some M&Ms, haha.

I DID update my blurb journal, praise God/Jesus. So that's a plus.

I've been listening to a lot of music and discovered a new singer I like...whose album I wouldn't actually mind buying someday, God Willing...called Billie Eilish.

I'm currently listening to songs on her channel on Youtube. Great voice. Interesting style. I like. It seems like she's got several music videos for the same song on some of them, lol...and ladders seem to be a common theme.

I made a new dress for Secondlife, but did not have the motivation to pack and sell it yet today...if it happens at all today.

I still need to edit my novel. Or just write altogether. I still need to do my laundry. I still need to clean the shower head. I still need to make my meal plan food, so I'm possibly less inclined to eat all this unhealthy stuff.

I miss chicken. We're out. lol. And there's other stuff. At least I'm not so hankering for boiled peanuts the way I was months ago. I can go without a lot easier these days than in recent history.

As for getting stuff done. I don't know. Is this just a mini-depression of some sort? Like I know there's stuff that needs to get done, and there's nothing standing the way of them being done but myself...but they aren't getting done? :/ It's not a great feeling...and maybe I need to stop overthinking things.

Meditation was nice last night. As usual, I switched my mind to my happy place where I'm on an empty crashing beach surrounded by tall and dark orange cliffs. And somewhere off in the corner, in a narrow space, I'm just spinning on a tire swing. Or dancing, singing, more spinning, and/or skipping  and skimming across the shore.

Or just altogether planning my wedding in my head, lol.

It does make me smile just mentioning this stuff.

The thought of whether I'm not wasting my life, hour by hour, constantly comes to me. It makes me feel kinda guilty...but I keep right on with whatever I'm doing, anyway. Usually things different than what I ought to be doing.

Maybe tomorrow I just need to make a list of everything that I've been saying needs to get done and just DO IT! And maybe, just maybe, that's easier said than done but God willing, we'll see. It's not a good idea to worry about tomorrow anyway when today is enough.

All Glory, Praise, Thanks and all things be to almighty God on the highest forever and ever in Jesus name, amen. God is able to do above all we ask or think!

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