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Saturday, August 29, 2015

Starting Again...



7:02 a.m. I went to sleep at a normal hour, finally. Woke up around 4 a.m. though. Still I got my sleep. Had some weird dream we went grocery shopping and I was daydreaming so deep that people were passing me in this long line. Then I went outside to meet up with April, Rob, and Rick.

April stops at this beat up truck and looks inside, and counts about three dollars in change on the dash. Then she heads back inside for something and that's all I recall.

As for my morning,  the past three hours I had a couple slices of pizza and played Flight Rising, which I desperately needed to take a break from. I also showered.

April may or may not be going to her Mom's today but if she is there are a couple things I can finally get done:

Today is one of those days where I made a goal list, so brace yourself:

1. Get all the familiars for my dragons on Flight Rising.
2. Get started on creating those SecondLife shorts.
3. Finish the SecondLife Halloween Bag.
4. Update Journal.
5. Transfer music from mp3 to Audacity for editing.
6. Go on another music mashup hunt. ^^
7. Read my Bible.
8. Add music to mp3 player.
9. Back up my latest chapter of Shondra's Law, possibly edit it.

P.S. My hair is coming back quick, so that's a plus. I may have been a bit hasty in shaving it since my self esteem can't handle showing the abnormal side in public yet but no biggie. At least I did it. :D Been thinking of it for a while, anyway. Oh! And I want to post pictures from the storm yesterday as well. ^^

4:03 p.m. Today I played Flight Rising and slept around Noon. I no longer have a cord that read my mp3 player for some reason, though it charges, but Rob lent me his to get new songs on there.

6:00 p.m. With enough searching, I found my perfect cord. ^^ Been downloading new music till it bores me, lol.

6:57 p.m. Updated my journal up to the entry before this one since this one isn't finished. Current mood: pleased. :D Praise and thank Jesus! Goals getting mostly done today.

7:06 p.m. Did some very, very minor editing of Shondra's Law and backed it up on the private blog where it is. If only I was in the mood to SL design, I could complete the whole list. My stuff didn't sell much today. But no worries. Still saving. P.S. Jesus saves! See what I did there? :)

Friday, August 28, 2015

Donny Don't Get It...

10:38 a.m. Before I start ranting about my neighbor, then forgiving him, I'm in the mood to celebrate that I finally started sleeping and waking at a normal hour the past couple nights!! Though I tried to work on another SL thing it didn't go as planned. -shrugs-

I got some songs I like from the Eh Bee vines, like the Mozart and Lollipop remixes.

Now the same old story. Donny and his knocking. It's 10 a.m. He knocks and I announced that they were asleep, which they are. Usually that is the end of it but no he says he has to tell me something. I am feeling it's too early. So he keeps knocking, and knocking, and I ignore it.

I get back to editing my Eh Bee tunes.

Then he knocks on my window and tells me to come outside and I say no, he insists. I get out of bed and leave my room and then go sit on the couch and wait until he's gone before coming back.

In normal cultures, if you're knocking and there is no one coming to the door, you come back at a later time. No, not Donny. Never Donny. No. He knocks and knocks with the assumption if he knocks enough, you're gonna give in and answer.

Yes, he's probably mad at me, maybe enough that I will not be able to use his dryer for a while and have to go back to Mom's in the grand scheme of things but come ON!!

I HAVE spoken to him about not knocking repeatedly but he does nods, then does what he wants anyway. This is why April and Rob don't bother because they know it solves nothing. He must learn the hard way that if no one is coming, come back later and if someone is here and does NOT come, then they are not in an outside social mood. (I, for one, am not) Mind you, it is 10 a.m. in the morning. April and Rob ARE sleeping after being up all night. Honestly, this tough lesson may not even work. Donny will just keep doing as Donny pleases.

We've told the land lady this and again, it solved nothing. Nothing we've told him works.

I know I'm being rude and insensitive about this, I am. He's lonely and wants company (because it's clear we are the only ones who give into his need for attention, roomies anyway) but I am not on call and neither are they. If I want company, I will seek it, and on my own will and time. The man cannot force it with persistence then knocking on my bedroom window with demands that I come outside. It's nonsense.

Part of the reason, and it's not his fault, is that a few minutes of talking with him exhausts me. He has a speech problem where it is hard to understand what he is saying, so my brain has to try to interpret and understand at the same time, at the same time I end up pretending I understand just to move the conversation along, and it's tiring. Not only that, when I am trying to conversate with Rob and April, he interrupts them and I, unapologetically, a lot. He craves attention, the poor guy. That is also tiring.

The persistence and the lack of social convention and understanding is tiring. Just....really?

I know there will be a lot more posts like this to come but there should be a lot less. End rant. Well, not so much the end and not so much on the ranting.

For a year now, he's taken to sleeping on our lawn and now he sleeps on the filthy cushions in our driveway (which I was supposed to re-upholster for the futon but changed my mind), which appears even sadder. He does have a home, mind you. But he stays around our yard as if he does not. We've allowed it. We've discussed it. He chose to sleep on the lawn because he, somehow despite wet grass, many ants, and anything else, enjoys it.

Photo taken September 14, 2015
But sleeping on old unwashed cushions that came from the garbage (that we didn't bring in the house with the futon) just seems even sadder and more unusual. I've kinda gone from anger and frustration to pity now. He seems to want to do it and to tell him not to seems pretty rude.

Life around here, in relationship to Donny, is just a complete oddity. It isn't normal, though what in life really is, but we have a nice attention-craving interrupting man who chooses to live with dirt and poverty on our lawn as if homeless, though he is not, because he finds it normal and enjoys it. And we let him without complaining about it....

I don't know anymore...

I am actually glad the curtain fell over the lens, as I was planning to pixelize his face or something anyway. 
11:32 a.m. Donny did come back later, and only knocked once, so that's something. However, I have locked the front porch gate. You know the sad thing is I can't guarantee that if I want to go outside to have some peaceful air ALONE that it will actually happen. No, I got to actually check if the yard is empty, and hope that it is empty, to do that. -_- God forgive me.

12:40 p.m. I stepped outside, hoping to get a private moment alone in the sunshine. I got as far as unlocking the gate, then he started walking towards the house. Like a silly person, I run back inside and prepare to avoid the door because I know what's coming.

Donny just knocked two more times and went to sleep on our lawn. It's a bit silly that I have to make sure I can look outside 'without being seen.' Little do we know, but we've given up the right to privacy on our own front lawn because we don't feel it's useful to say anything.

I'm not saying he's ever hurt anyone by doing it, he's nice and all, but I'd like to be able to sit on the steps and listen my thoughts and the wind in the trees (and that is a habit of mine, not just a figure of speech) without having conversation...and I cannot.

Again, glad for the anonymity of blurriness but this shows that I cannot be alone outside if I choose.
I'm finally documenting in pictures what I've seen almost daily, if not for certain weekly, for the past year that I've lived here. Perhaps this will one day pass and these will serve as a holder to my memories. For now, it's just documenting real life, what I've been saying all along.

1:25 p.m. Prayers for Zuwara and the victims in the sinking. Hundreds of lives lost. God rest their souls in Jesus name, amen! P.S. I made bacon and ramen but that news is not important compared to the prayers needed for the lost ones in this sinking!!

1:34 p.m. This is what a few minutes of privacy looks like... :)

Still not wanting to go out without a hat yet, no less happy.
Animals grazing in the pasture from across a breezy and empty lawn. 

I sound like a cranky old neighbor, let's just get that out of the way, but who doesn't love privacy? P.S. The lock on our porch gate broke. Meaning, if there is to be more knocking today, we will be hearing it. Meanwhile, I need something to do. Oh boy....

3:10 p.m. Hurricane is coming. Yawn. So much for the sunny day. Need to get off the internet...like now...

4:17 p.m. So what Donny has been trying to say all day is that the daughter of one of our neighbors passed, though we didn't know her, God rest her soul in Jesus name, Amen! I was busy outside enjoying the incoming storm and I took fun new 'stock' photos and did what I enjoy most, recording the rain on my mp3 recorder. I did this for about 40-50 minutes and then fed the cats. Better than the internet by far....

4:54 p.m. Ready to recolor an old photo of Alice Roosevelt, meanwhile listening to my rain recordings. also, looked up all those quotes I knew Marilyn Monroe never really said. I'm an odd fruit, that you can quote me on.

5:43 p.m. Rain stopped. Finished!!! Coloring a photo makes previously unnoticed minor details stand out a bit, and makes history look more alive. I wrote this already but I accidentally hit backspace and lost my work >.<


10:29 p.m. We went grocery shopping tonight. I got dehydrated as usual but I was fine later. :) Feeling super sleepy and post-sleep I want a shower. So tired...so many dragons randomly adopted on Flight Rising today that it's laughable lol.


Thursday, August 27, 2015

Getting With It.

4:41 p.m. Yesterday I made that Splatter Dress on SecondLife I wanted and BEGAN a new top. I went to bed at a decent hour, finally, 10 p.m. and woke up at nearly 4 a.m. I've played Flight Rising and hope to see another day of hard work.


Oh, AND AT 3 A.M. YESTERDAY I CUT MY HAIR OFF!!! Felt liberating. Mohawked it. I'm not walking public with it yet, don't have the self esteem to not care if someone stares or judges, but I am happy to wear it in private as an expression of self. Family has been mostly supportive. :D Shocked, but supportive.


I thought about going back to sleep but I've had like six hours and I'm already up. Been drinking more water. Rob and April made cookies, a bit too hard for me, and that is all so far. Hope to update more, God bless, Jesus loves, lives, saves!

Also dreamt about JRM again, that he had a new movie where he got to do the voice of a little girl, like "being an adult in a kids' world." I loved it. I hear the voice-over of some interview while looking up and down at this pole with what was either fliers or computer monitors on it.

On a random note, revisited IMVU to see my old products. Wish I still had the files so I could take them, then apply them to my SL avatar.

Still saving up 2500 Lindens to convert to cash, about ten bucks worth, so I can finally get some money back in my bank account. My store is in it's beginning stages but it can earn nearly 50-100 lindens a day which makes me happy. :D The more products I put out, the more I'll make until I've expanded my store into a wide affordable selection and maybe one day have a GENUINE business and income. Goals, man. Goals. It's one way to utilize my art talent for money.

5:27 a.m. Made some macaroni and hot dogs. Gonna chill...

5:58 a.m. Everyone is asleep since I'm on a different schedule than them. I know Rob normally lets me use the computer to do SL creating but I don't want to disturb him so I will grin and bear it on the laptop. The newest GIMP is not fun to use but I eventually get the job done, lol. Praise Jesus. God works miracles above all we ask or think.

10:05 a.m. It's seriously only ten a.m! lol. That's like four hours. I attempted to make a couch earlier, after making an awesome rug, on SL but the couch didn't work out as hoped. I had a little snack going and then got on Netflix. Wtill feel like designing today, just not sure what...or if I can muster the patience for GIMP on this laptop,,,,April is trying to sleep, Rob is asleep (still trying not to get on his computer) and yeah. Life.



Just hope I am doing something with it. God has a plan in Jesus name, Amen!

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11:34 a.m. Finished Netflix. REALLY wanting to make a new design on SL today, just not sure what. Hungry for real food, not snacks, so I hope to do something about that as well...

10:11 p.m. Almost eleven hours later. After writing, sometime, I fell asleep until 5 p.m. ate and worked on designing a velvet web gothic top I've been working on for a couple days. I finished it and I'm going onto the shorts later, God willing, to finish the set. God is blessing me.

I am feeling tired. I cried. Dad thought I was crazy for what I did to my hair but we talked it out and we're cool now. I had to explain that happiness matters and I'm worth more than my hairstyle. Just my eyes have that 'kinda hot' saggy leftover from crying feel to them so it's making me feel sleepy.

On the plus side, my new rug got a couple sales today, and I got another positive review on a product (Those things make me nervous but all the happier when they work out) so I'm thrilled about that. On my way with this SL thing.

God bless, Jesus loves, lives, saves! All glory, praise, thanks, and all things be to God on the highest forever and ever in Jesus name, Amen! God is able!

Tuesday, August 25, 2015

Newsy News

1:39 p.m. I went to bed by 3 p.m. yesterday, woke up around Midnight from some nightmare where someone burned my journals >.< Stayed up and played on Secondlife, Scrubs, and Flight Rising until nearly 9 a.m. then napped, woke up at around Noon. I made shells macaroni, hot dogs, and Checkers fries and just finished eating.

I wrote down a goal list of things to do with my life today, (With my new composition notebook, yay back to school season. Thank God) writing this blog being one of them. I suppose a hard copy wouldn't hurt. Already scratched off a couple today.


  1. Clean my room.
  2. Make my bed.
  3. Take a walk. [Postponed]
  4. Read.
  5. Read my Bible.
  6. Fold my laundry.
  7. Make a Splatter Dress for SL.
  8. Message OkCupid guy.

Longer term:
  1. Make 2500L, send to Paypal, then bank. Thank God for it when I do.
  2. Complete list of 'Projects' on SL Notecard.
  3. Map an unmapped mesh (3D) item.
  4. Finish SL trick or treat bag by October 31.
  5. Continue wriitng my book.
THAT is the list, though it looks longer on paper, lol. I'm just wondering how many I will actually be motivated to do, you know? Pray for me in Jesus name, amen! God does above all we ask or think! P.S. Been thinking about those Eh Bee Family vines...LOVE them!!!

2:56 p.m. Got some more things done. Feeling like another nap is needed. Just finished hanging out with April. I forgot how good it felt to cross off goal lists. :) Life improvements are needed.

7:53 p.m. Put on makeup and took some selfies today, as well as panoramas. ^^ Feeling confident.

10:13 p.m. We are going to be doing major furniture moving soon. Me in the living room, April in mine, storage in her soon to be 'old' room. Gonna be interesting. Just when I took pictures, lol. XD
Hung out with the gang and ready to sleep now.

Say goodbye to this being my room....

Monday, August 24, 2015

Yesterday was Uneventful So...

2:04 p.m. I DO recall working on an SL Halloween Goodie bag (not done yet, candy part finished) but nothing else was out of the ordinary. I FINALLY finished my skin today so I'm happy about that. STILL sleeping at odd hours and neglecting my blog. Eep. I think it's just that time of year when I do, seems to happen every year around this time I have trouble keeping up. Tis' odd.

Also, on Flight Rising, got to paint my progen (first dragon) a new pieblad color. Onto glimmer and I'm all set...though it may take a while. :D Played plenty of that yesterday, too.

Still watching Scrubs and whatnot. :) The past two days. Eating, sleeping, dreaming too much  although I can't remember what about. I sang on a 'Celine Dion' kind of level in one last night so that was fun. ^^


I think I'll be sleeping again, however. I went to sleep around 5 p.m. yesterday and woke up around 3-4 a.m. and have been up ever since. My sleep schedule is le' gone.

Saturday, August 22, 2015

I've Been Meaning To Write.

It's been two days, technically three (August 23rd) depending where you live, but I've been busy buying/getting free meshes and making more SL stuff. I've really taken a fondness to making denim in my textures whereas before I kinda avoided it.

Granted I'm not picky and it takes many hours just to do it but the result is worth it. Praise Jesus Christ. God gave me a gift. I'm thinking my next project isn't even going to be clothes, it'll be Halloween Candy (Yes, that can be done in SL.) I can get really creative with that and can hardly wait.

Anywho, other that I've been eating, sleeping at odd hours, watching Scrubs, and sleeping with cats. Always praising God in my heart. That is all.



Thursday, August 20, 2015

Mwuahaha!

5:34 p.m. For two days, I've been designing an african american skin on SecondLife, and it is going well. I FINALLY did my laundry which desperately needed doing. We went on a surprise grocery trip today with just April and she was super nice and happy. Good things.

She got me Disney gummies, a 'Frozen' handheld fan, (don't judge me) I got to charge my dead mp3 player in the car, we got all of us some new composition notebooks (Yay college ruled) and awesome groceries because we still had a nice stock of necessities already on hand. I'd say things are looking up. P.S. Had a nice big bowl of popcorn while I was still up early this morning. Playing Flight Rising just a little less than usual.

I discovered a new Viner I liked.

 And also this video:

So yeah...if I write nothihng else tonight just know things are turning up. :D On a random note, contemplated the Christian afterlife today. Life is precious.

My idea of death (like in my last moments) is that I'll see my loved ones, and mavbe some other angels, worshiping Jesus...and in the background there is Metal Opera Gospel playing. It makes me smile to imagine it. God bless, Jesus loves, lives, saves homies. Bye!

11:33 p.m. Facebook is not a private place to post things. I went to sleep some time after writing this blog and April woke to ask me about the fact that a member of my family is using my Netflix account (her mother saw it on my Facebook which showed up on April's feed because her Mom uses April's fb) ANYWAY! We changed the password and settled that.

This aside, I certainly cannot write the things on here that I do on Facebook. My family has not been made aware of this blog, though I've been tempted before, and it is therefore my open forum without scrutiny (unlike Facebook.)

I can write something, express myself, without being asked to take it down because someone didn't want it there (this does not apply to a thing where someone doesn't want their name or photo used) I just mean when I discuss life situations. Facebook has gotten me in a little muddy water this year...

I was also thinking this when I was having my thoughts on the abrupt shortness of life earlier today, where I knew that if I was suddenly gone, all my thoughts...even the deepest, darkest, weirdest, most embarrassing ones are going to be left behind. My family may or may not find this blog (although I do have the hard copies of past entries in my journals which would be passed on after my death) still...that JRM obsession which was way out of hand, admittedly, for quite a few years, is in there. Hope they forgive that one.

That's probably the major thing I'd worry about them reading (hence why my livejournal blog is hidden because it is those entries in vivid detail) but yeah....life. While I can keep what I write here secret for a short time, one day it will all spill out in the open. Not sure if that's a good or bad thing to expect yet....for the present it is out of the reach of personal family scrutiny (unlike Facebook.)

2015: In a world where a private life is not as private as you thought or wished...God willing.

Note to those disturbed by the death talk, I have absolutely no intention ever of taking my life or causing self harm. I pray, like anyone else, I go in the most natural way when God is ready for me. Life is happy, I love people, God, myself, and would  very, very, very verryyy gladly go on to live as many years as God is willing to let me have. No. worries. :D

Tuesday, August 18, 2015

SL Stuff and a Weird Dream.

10:42 p.m. I slept with a bunch of kittens on the couch at 4-5 a.m. woke at 8 a.m. and stayed up into the afternoon making another SL outfit (I also made templates for future creations from old outfits) and then slept 7-8 more hours.



Just woke up from this weird dream. Just when I thought my dreams of him were over...

I dreamt telling someone I couldn't meet JRM because I would cry, so I had them say hi FOR me. Next thing I remember was moving back to mulberry and I decided to try and find the museum (because I love museums) and walked along a VERY VERY speeding highway.

Jonathan Rhys Meyers and Mara Lane pull up and usher me, and some girls who were walking in the distance behind me, in the car. He started sniffing at me and tried to figure out a 'familiar' scent. I told him it was cinnamon, hoping it wasn't body odor of all things, he accepted it and then he went on about how Mara cooked that stuff in everything.

We arrived at the musueum which looked near deserted and saw a masoleum attached with this passive aggressive epitath above it, which blamed the death of the founder's son for the museum not having it's owner around.

In front of it was the son lying 'in state' and about eight years old. He was mummified but also covered in a 'cement' old. There were some homemade dolls in the same mummified look (more like sock monkey-types, not the girly creepy dolls.)

Then we ran into this woman who was giving out pirated DVD's and I, shamefully, accepted. Then Jonny says I will pay you for all of them (only to do the right thing and prevent her from giving out these pirated movies, some of which were Robin Williams' films.) She agreed and gave him the DVD's.

I tried to hand mine to him but she took them back. I showed her my old mix CD's and asked her what she thought was a fair price. She said, 'Fifty bucks.' Of course, I agreed. I almost took back the one's with my name on it but changed my mind.

There was some woman involved in this transaction, I forget how, but I caught her going through my purse. My wallet was empty so there was nothing for her to steal. Somehow, though, she turned it around on me and I was the one apologizing, then she refused to accept the apology!

That is all I remember. Dinner now. April cooked chicken, fries, and make. I got grape soda. YOLO!

10:59 p.m. I meant to say this yesterday BUT: This takes me back to my childhood. Have not seen this thing in forever. When I was a kid, when we drove past it (which was VERY often) I would picture myself going inside like there was a winding castle staircase in there or something.

EDIT: THERE IS a winding staircase I learned tonight. Still, this tower has a special spot in my heart.


11:32 p.m. Excited because I just had two positive reviews on my products. I always get nervous when I get a review alert because there is always that chance that the news is not good BUT it thrills me when it turns out to be great news! SO happy and ready to keep up the hard work.

Monday, August 17, 2015

Sleep. Sleep? Sleep?! Who Does THAT?

6:12 a.m. Me, not enough apparently. I've gotten more SL outfits done instead.




I hand painted the mannequins as well. :D Anyway! Harmony is due to arrive today, so I'm thrilled about that. Can't wait. :D And..April is away at a doctor's appointment so I'm borrowing her computer to write this.

The usual with me is staying up all night until morning hours and then sleeping until evening. I haven't made enough time for God or the other parts of my life, unfortunately. Kinda in a jam with all this and hoping to change.

I had a dream about that 'Shut Up and Dance' music video trend on Youtube, the one where they splice movie and tv dance scenes to that song. I dreamt I showed it to April.



I'm at at point where right now it's giving me a smile in the middle of my day.

8:26 a.m. Nothing  much. Tried to make another SL outfit but too tired. Playing on the computer and getting ready to eat soon...

9:58 a.m. Sharing Netflix with Jen. At the last minute, both kids are coming but not a big deal. Love having them. April is back and the dentist went well for her. More soon...

9:25 p.m. 12 hours later, lol. Today with the kids was great. They had play doh, Mcdonalds, Youtube, and seeing the animals across the street. After they left, I went to bed until 9 p.m. and just got up and doing the same computer stuff. :)

Saturday, August 15, 2015

Sleep Schedule Is Out.

9:29 p.m. Woke up at 8 p.m. last night and stayed up until 3 in the afternoon today (after we finished grocery shopping), slept until just now. In that time, I did manage to get out a tank top, as well as an SL outfit I was dying to do. Dying so much to do that it seemed like I could not sleep until I made it...a golden jumpsuit. My last couple products were quick and cheap and I wanted something exlemplary. I also made a template of clothing folds, for future use. Add in some heavy Flight Rising and you've got my life.

I also just got a positive review on my product, Blue Plate Gown. YAY!



Current mood: Need food and to drink more water...after I finish this Soy Milk, lol.

2:02 p.m. You can guess that there are better ways to spend my time...first Flight Rising, then sorting Pinterest and I was watching SPN convention videos with a side of Facebook in between. At least I showered. Always wondering if I'm doing enough with my life to please God....whittling away my precious hours on things I know don't matter. God change me. Oi.

Thursday, August 13, 2015

Here's The Latest:

11:25 p.m. I went to bed at past 8 a.m. and woke up at near 6 p.m. and spent hours making a pair of SL jeans and shoes which I JUST completed! Woo! Hoo.

That is all.


Wednesday, August 12, 2015

I'm Not Keeping Up...

3:58 a.m. Harmony's visit got postponed in the meantime. Yesterday I spewed out a SecondLife teddy bear (that's how I spent part of the day before as well) AND worked on my 'Cassplay' outfit only to learn that despite well done art, GIMP ruined the image quality of it and it is therefore so far kinda useless, maybe...and working on a new top which does not involve mesh.

C* Jack the Bear

I went to bed around 8 a.m. and JUST woke up. Donny, Donny, Donny. Tsk, tsk, tsk. There needs to be a book title called 'Donny Knocks' because it is  recurring theme in this book. I must forgive him that he is strange and doesn't follow ordinary customs, even when asked or reminded.

The custom being that normally, if you knock two times, and everyone is bed and nobody is answering (or in my case, just getting out of bed and in the bathroom) you leave and come back later. Not Donny. Never. No. He knocked, and knocked, and knocked until someone would answer. Oi.



April was pulled out of bed by it, she stomped. then stormed outside with her sleeping mask still hanging on her face, and listened to what he had to say. He was there a few minutes and that was that.I don't know if she's going back to bed or not..

4:14 p.m. Checking my daily social networks.

5:39 p.m. Working on a new SecondLife top. Also, took a break and brought the coffee table indoors. The neighbors gave it to us weeks ago and it was sitting out there. I hosed it down and let it dry the other day but I'll say one thing, if I don't stop bringing in stray furniture, we'll run out of room. On the plus side, we can sell or give it away one day, right?

11:04 p.m. Over five and a half hours later and still not done with this SecondLife top. In case you're wondering what goes into the process, its painting on this (for a 3D model to wear):

Before:

Now:


Takes me back to when I did this for clothes on IMVU, though it was a different process. Even this is a different process, slightly anyway, for the way I normally add clothes to my meshes lol. This isn't even mesh, it's a flat plane to go on the body i.e. Think something shapely around a 3D object (mesh) verses wrapping your 3D avatar with a flat image (above) and that is sort of what I mean.

3:24 a.m. At long last, I finish it!!! I also made a texture png to sell on the marketplace. :D I am not uploading the top however, until I can make some delightful pants to go with it. full outfit ^^. Woot!




That's all folks. It's morning. God bless, Jesus loves, lives, saves! All glory, praise, thanks, and all things be to God on the highest forever and ever in Jesus Name, Amen! God is able!

Sunday, August 9, 2015

Summaries, Summaries, Summaries.

I've spent too long on Flight Rising the past few days.

I got Chapter Three going the other day on Shondra's Law and we had a grocery shopping trip. We got Rob a Red Velvet cake for his birthday. After that, April left for the night and came back VERY early yesterday morning.

Downloaded a bunch of new music a few days ago. :)

I still stay up all night and sleep all day.

Harmony is coming over tomorrow afternoon, so I'm excited about that. ^^ Can't wait to take pictures and whatnot.

That is all.

Friday, August 7, 2015

Today's Highlights.

1. Worked on Chapters One and Two of Shondra's Law.

2. April has gone to her parents for the night so I have updated my journal book.

3. Slept in again, forgot Mrs. M's mail earlier today.

4. GIMP is a lost cause on the laptop, not that I tested it today.

5. It is almost 9 p.m. I'm hungry, don't feel like cooking and that's all. I'll likely be on Flight Rising and other comptuer stuff tonight so bye!!! 

EDIT: Near Midnight. Used GIMP despite it's issues. WIP:

It's the 'start' of a Castiel Cosplay. 'Cassplay.'

Thursday, August 6, 2015

Anything But Blogging?

12:28 a.m. When you have been writing daily, if not weekly, about your daily activities since 2010 (meaning I can find out what I had breakfast and what time on some day in 2011)..It's easy to see why it can suddenly be harder to want to keep up a journal.

I made pasta and chicken alfredo last night. We can read about that a few years from now, lol.

I've been playing on the computer and eating too much as usual...mainly did that all day yesterday and been sleeping 12 hours a day. 3 a.m. to 3 p.m. My art program has completely destroyed my ability to make a quality texture for my products anymore so that's a let down...especially after buying all those meshes today.

I attempted a Castiel cosplay "Cassplay" for SL and it didn't go so smooth because of it. 

Anyway! I just thought I'd catch up. More tomorrow, God Willing. Nothing eventful today although I did randomly look up Robin Williams' IMDB. P.S. New Jumanji coming out but skeptical because it wouldn't be the same without him.

Forgot to bring Mrs. M her mail. 

Random note: My social life on the internet is nearly gone, aside from Mr. OkCupid date although I think I should say hi more to him.

Three more months and I can read the letter I wrote [in 2010] to future "Me in November 2015" which I have been waiting to respond to and answer her questions about my future for years! Sometimes stuff would happen and I would think, "Yeah, I'd love to mention that to 2010 me lol."

Wednesday, August 5, 2015

I Poofed.

3:37 a.m. Laundry got done today, I made another SL thing (called a 'Lazy Sweater') for hours and have a random cat behind me. Huzzah! Also ate too much today...Oi.



Tuesday, August 4, 2015

I Haven't Said Much...

1:13 p.m. It's been a few days. I haven't worked much on this 'new book' per se. I've had my share of sleep and computer time, though. Garbanzo, praise God, healed. I made a new dress in Second Life.

Rob and I also visited April's Mom's yesterday about them getting a new computer and she needed his help to do it.

April and I got over yet another fight. -__- This has been our roughest year together, to be honest.

Started when we were leaving the house yesterday and I was having trouble locking up, I said something and instead of helping, she says 'You're gonna have to learn to do this yourself,' and I did...manage on my own. Her tone just sounded annoyed with the idea of helping me.

Then after we were going home, we were having a discussion where I have to get a new copy of my birth certificate. I didn't know the process of doing it, I asked for help, and she said 'You're gonna have to learn to do this yourself,' and I threw my hands in the air about it. Not because I didn't know how, and I didn't, but because I had to hear that 'stupid' phrase again.

I didn't end up telling her this but I know exactly the real reason that phrase annoys me. I have had times in my life where I was lazy and told those same words to Aaliyah, just because I didn't feel like helping her out. I hated being thrown the same phrase I used. With me, it had a stigma alongside it's normal 'well meaning.'

Anyway, we got home and I was SO tired. Donny knocked FOUR times yesterday. That's four times right outside my window and four conversations going on on the porch....right outside my window. I was finally able to crash.

April came in and asked if I was going to get on the birth certificate thing. I told her I really needed it to wait until I got some sleep. She said they would be closed by then and yet I insisted, so she shut the door. Basically went to bed with a rift still going on.

I wound up dreaming of us having this huge argument over abortion and it blowing up with me storming out of the house. When I woke up, April was washing dishes (the times where she is cleaning to cope with frustration) Once again, we hashed it out (in peace and things settled) after explaining ourselves.

April, for her part, is exhausted of Rob and I being so dependent on her wisdom (I do not say wisdom in a facetious or sarcastic manner) but we do lean on her a LOT for help and support. She said she would help me, in the first place, she just thought I wanted to get her to do it FOR me. Not unreasonable.

So long story short, that got cleared up. I made a new dress on SecondLife after that. :D I'm finally doing something because these past few days I have slipped back into Lackadaisy and doing some meaningless things. I also need to do laundry -facepalm- Anyway, more later...


5:26 p.m. Today I made macaroni and hot dogs, ate, got laundry done, brought Mrs. M her mail, hung outside with the cats, and made a cushion cover, by hand, for the new couch. One of many I hope to finish. Although my fabric will be mismatched, lol.

Saturday, August 1, 2015

So Yeah, God is Throwing A Lot This Year...

4:14 p.m. This will be candid. The first half of 2015 has been like the year of family crisis. My beloved stepsister Jackie died at 19, my Mema gets hospitalized and someone has to care for Papa and they've made their arrangements for when God takes them home. Getting, then losing (along with my hair) lice, Our landlord is selling the rent lots and we are possibly getting a new landlord, not knowing what our fate will be with them. Donny's dog Jerry, who we got to know over the year since we moved in, passed. That time Donny held the door to keep me from closing it so he could talk. My shipping address does not work for an unknown reason. Joe moved out of my Mom's house and left her upset after spending happy years together. My brother has lost a member of his and his girlfriend's family to a tragic tragic murder. I've been distancing myself from April, my best friend, because she said she doesn't like the presence of people in her room and I'm trying to give her space. My blood sugar spiked at 122 last night. My netbook is slowly breaking after a year. I'm trying to come out of a lackadaisical streak and I keep having those demon nightmares again. It's all a real way to test your faith.

It would be only fair to see the upsides to my year so far as well. God knows sometimes the brain has trouble figuring out which of those it was as easily.

Getting to see more of my family and having my nieces come over for the first time, finding a date, reconciling with Caleb, publishing Seize (even after the shipping fiasco) painting watercolors, making books, Swimming at the creek this summer, making outfits on SecondLife (among doing other things) and being successful at it, getting back in and out of writing, That good month of a health streak I was on, Seeing Uncle Pat again (he gets out of prison in December of this year) Getting to see Papa (although it's been ages since I saw Mema) while I still can, Framing an artwork of mine for the first time, Making a dress for Aaliyah and making 'Nature Bottles' with her, that toddler bed and couch I found on the side of the road that was perfectly useful, my own Church visit (a long one) and Bible study, recording rainstorms on a voice recorder, that tax season where suddenly I actually had money and slowly, very slowly, spent it back down to nothing (aside from Charity uses) Having another niece or nephew on the way, Finding Pinterest. I've contemplated shaving my head again

Now as a reminder...I'll be scowering the blog posts of January onward to relive the pros and cons of the year so far, in no particular order.

Pros:
Gra3yardgirl@Youtube.com
This Fabulous Century 1910-1920 Book.
Discovering Fort Meade's Museum.
The trip to MOSI for Malania's birthday.
Discovering SecondLife.
Read more books. :D Finished off several this year.
JRM Dreams
Donating to JRM's Charity
Going Blonde
Cutting my hair off.
Trying to learn the Blender 3D Model Program.
Kittens!!!
Sams Club Membership and the trips that followed.
Getting to know Barb, Lavidia, and Marina before they moved.
Hissy warming up to us.
Baking my first three tier cake for April.
Discovering that nice park to walk and exercise in.
Finding my 'Magma Time' on Neopets.
When they finally put 'The Men Who Built America' on Netflix.
Seeing a Hawk sitting with a fresh fish in his claws.
The single session of therapy I could afford.
Jojo and Donny (different Donny) leaving Mom's and going back to New York.
Losing Lice.
Buying new music every week for a brief period.
The bank I used since I was 18, Eight years, waving my bank fees for life.
Donny sharing his dryer with me since we don't have our own.
Getting better at drawing.
Colorizing black and white photos.
Getting both Mod Podge glue AND spray! :D
Getting our first cake pan.
NOT stealing music anymore.
So many bonfires I can't even....
Carlo coming at me with a fresh caught lizard in his mouth, tail missing, and then losing the lizard. I saw the lizard with the missing tail recently on our fence months later. XD
Making my own healthy recipes, including the best mild sauce I ever tried.
The many times I anticipated going back home from Mom's.

Cons:
That guy who spam texted me, making me never want to give out my number to a guy who asks again.
All those fights with April.
Anne Allison stopped being friends with me.
Getting Lice.
Unbearable heat at Mom's house.
Effects of psychological medication.
That time a cop pulled me over and searched me, and got my info, for walking on a curb.
Bookwright inconsistancies.
Getting Drunk that one embarrassing time.
Safelink phone expiring and a new one not showing up.
Overeating some days.
When that collection company sniped my entire tax return.
Having several days of carpal tunnel from making too many SL clothes.
When our elderly neighbor, Mrs. M collapsed at her mailbox.
Flag debates so far this year.
Blogging less as the year goes on.
Losing my favorite Marilyn Monroe fleece blanket.
Unsuccessfully fitting my too-tight jeans after resewing them.

5:27 p.m. Well, it took about an hour but there's the list. Normally I would say the pro's outweighed the cons but when it comes to losing someone in death or people getting sick, it's easy to see it's still been a rough year. However, I am thankful for the good things this first half of the year, so praise Jesus. God is able to do above all we ask or think. There are much more happy things that happened but these were the top ranking best moments. Thank you...

7:04 p.m. Still having kind of a hard week. It's not easy when your best friend doesn't want to spend time with you because she just doesn't feel like having people around in her room period. In her defense, it does make a space smaller. In my defense, I have to make myself alone so that desire can be pleased.

A diary is a selfish thing and does discuss selfish desires. I want to spend time with my friend and wish she didn't dislike the presence of people. I also have to accept the things I cannot change.

I can't help that I don't understand why she is always unhappy. She is literally, every day, always  unhappy with some aspect her life and it's a tragedy because she's such a wonderful person.

7:42 p.m. We talked it out. I'm gonna give her her space but we can Skype until she's feeling better.

10:04 p.m. I worked on most of chapter one of Shondra's Law today, so that's a plus. :D

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