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Thursday, March 26, 2015

I Barely Know Where To Begin.

9:55 a.m. I've been up for a while now, since a little time after the sun came up. I had so many dreams that I'm not sure where to begin with them. I'll get the shorter, blurrier ones out of the way first and then move onto the longer ones.

In one scene, I was riding in an open carriage with Taylor Swift to the prom and we had these shiny 1980's shoulder sleeve puffed dresses, meanwhile as we went by we were calling and waving to fans.

Another dream had Kanye West and a young Puff Daddy together, happy as can be as friends. I can't recall too much of a plot.

I also must have had some small dream involving Harely Chapman aka the mini "Cara Delevingne"

And finally, the longer one. I was poolside and following a living bronze statue of a blind man in a suit, who was smiling, and HE was being led by an indian chief. They crossed the pool by walking on water.

Meanwhile, myself and others crossed the 'Split Sea Of Moses' which basically started like a bridge splitting the pool and led into an underground tunnel, like a manufactured cave. Some holes with plexiglass were carved out so you could peek at what looked like an ocean beneath it.

At the end, we reached this ladder made of thick tiki branches, glazed over in an artificial way. Then when we reached the top, there was a party going on. I saw someone passing around a red bottle of liquor and I thought I might like to have some.

Then there is this guy in a suit and he comes up and says, to the room, "Hi, I'm Jackie Carbone..." and happily pulls a thin fake moustache from his lip. He grinned like he just caught me in a sting operation and then looked away, letting out the most deafening HIGH pitch scream imaginable, which rang DIRECTLY into my ear, and I woke up. God woke me from it, I believe.

Shaking my head. ANOTHER demon dream. I have those a lot, obviously. But I spend my time praying afterwards so it's cool. I sleep with two Crosses and a Bible at my chest. After all, I've been having demon nightmares since I was thirteen years old. And this wasn't the only one I had tonight.

I was laying in bed, thinking I was awake, and talking about how I didn't believe I was hearing any voice of demon or satan. Then, if you know what a strobe light does, that's what the next FEELING was like...mostly in my brain. Meanwhile, some demon is hissing his words through the hum of my fan, which is also making noise patterns in screaming flashes, and I'm just cringing and clutching my head from all the terror going on. It's like the blare of a car alarm going off right next to your ear.

I snap out of it, of course...in one of those moments where I am lying in the exact same position as I was in the dream, as if what happened was real. Again, there were prayers. I don't know what's been up with the demon dreams the past two days but I am still assured of God's protection. They aren't able to do more than scare me in my dreams. God hasn't forsaken me.

I could go on forever with the religion thing but I just know what has been working and God is it. This is experience talking and whoever wants to believe it, can.

ANYWAY, today I watched a bit of Supernatural, the new episode. Played on Tumblr, Neopets, showered, and watched Hissy and her new kittens. I was nervous to cover so much of my dreams but it was easier than I thought.

Though I spent a lot of yesterday reading, I have seen around the house that there is a lot of mess to clean up. Not only that, one of my earbud cushions went missing yesterday. -_- Not fun. I hope I can fix that problem because cleaning to music is the best way to do it.

12:15 a.m. Well, the house is clean...aside from my bed and the dishes, which believe it or not, I've been told NOT to ever wash them all again because it is unfair to the other roommates who need to share the responsibility. I'm not mocking, I mean it. Or kidding. But no, no mocking. I get shared responsibility and whatnot. Anyway, I'm hoping to dive right back into reading again and I am just a hair closer to being in a drawing mood again, Praise Jesus! All glory, praise, thanks, and all things be to God on the highest forever and ever in Jesus Name, amen! God is able!

12:19 p.m. Am I the only one who waits until they are alone to do catwalks down the hall to music. Combined with the dancing, it feels absolutely FABULOUS!

3:36 p.m. I read my book a long while and NOW I'm hanging out with April. Why does time always feel like 5 p.m. lately?

4:18 p.m. Still hanging out with April, who is playing TF2. I finished off four Oreos with milk earlier, and just recently a couple of tuna fish sandwiches.

I never shared my reaction to reading Harriet Jacobs book. I got the part where she is suffering her years hiding from her master in a tiny space in her Grandmother's house. Her small children don't even know where she is! And My heart shrank back at the graphic descriptions of tortures, horrifically likely considered the norm, of slaves she saw and heard. This story is really impacting my heart and I highly recommend this book, which is not a light and fun read but a courageous, frightening, and heart wrenching tale. I'm appalled at the lengths these people went, with pleasure enough to do it daily, to torture innocent slaves. Makes me want to cry reading it. Again, not a light hearted or fun read but I would suggest to anyone interested to check it out.

April has stopped playing TF2, lol.

5:30 p.m. April played a little of Portal 2 as I watched. Not much else to report here. Did have chips though, popcorn and cheetos..yum!

7:06 p.m. I have been hanging out with April...not doing much of note and really feeling the need for a brief nap. Totally up for deviled eggs or something at some point when the water comes back. God bless, Jesus died, Rose, Saved! See you much later, God willing. All in Jesus Name, Amen! Bye!

7:31 p.m. I tried to sleep, then I wanted to read. April left for a few hours so now is my chance to work on Seize to the most of my ability. God bless in Jesus Name, Amen! Meanwhile, I'm listening to Spotify.

9:12 p.m. Over an hour later, nearly two, and it is done, except for adding this incomplete entry to it. Praising God on the highest forever and ever in Jesus Name, Amen! God is able!

10:31 p.m. April has since arrived home to share her many stones she got for her birthday and a pair of gaming headphones, which she can't get the microphone part to work, AND I tried to give her a pouch and in doing so found a few things I thought I lost: A FAKE DIAMOND (matching the one she bought me for Christmas) my old candle (my brother once burned it almost completely up in a sotrm) it was a birthday gift from her in my teenage years and my precious clear quartz Crystal I got from Old Town years ago. :D All of which up until now I had been wondering where it disappeared to. This video shows it, from 2010, when I just got it:


Praising and Thanking God on the highest forever and ever in Jesus Name, Amen! God is able! P.S. SINCE we still have no water, I have to forgo a shower tonight. I already am desperate just to wash my hands but nonetheless, this is how it goes. Also, my book is still uploading, as April kindly allowed it. I am SO ready for bed very shortly so this has to be the end of my updates.

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