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Friday, January 30, 2015

Summary of my Day...Again.


  • I slept in until noon...I tried for longer but could do it no further. I had a horrible time sleeping last night, too, but more on why towards the bottom of the entry.
  • Today I took another long walk to the park, where they are having a Civil War re-renactment that I wished I could go to, but can't, tomorrow morning.
  • Watched a LOT of this person: grav3yardgirl on Youtube because I can't seem to get enough of her. Love this chick and her product reviews.
  • Made pancakes for the first time in forever...twas' delicous. Blueberry for me....which I ate while making chocolate ones for April. Donny brought over some biscuits which was a kind deed on his part.
  • The neighbor gave Rob and I each a Pepsi in exchange for some cigarettes (from him, I'm a non-smoker) and a couple hours later we went grocery shopping where we bought MORE! April didn't come along..she chose to sleep off the hard work she did re-arranging the dining room this morning. 
  • Hissy cat licked my hand. The progress continues.
  • Lately, I've been having a habit of thinking of things which cloud my mind for strange reasons. I fangirl and coo over JRM and Mara in my sleep, because they are two perfectly matched wonderful people. Sia's Elastic Heart music video. I play out scenes from the animated film El Dorado, think about past events in my life which no longer matter, and so on...all until I'm asking myself why I'm bothering thinking of it right then. I toss and turn a lot.
  • April keeps the heat on continuously, still, yet it's 73 degrees in the house. I guess God has His own compromise since we both want polar opposite temperatures. I still keep my ceiling fan and mini fan going. I'm not complaining.
God Bless, Jesus Loves, Lives, Saves! All Glory, Praise, Thanks, and all things be to God on the highest forever and ever in Jesus Name, Amen! God is Able!

P.S. Wondering when I'll actually sit down and read my already published journals, like seriously. ;)

When it comes to having a relationship, I've reached a stalemate. I don't trust meeting some guy I know online even if we talked a while. When I get approached by a guy in person, which I did the other day and he was kind, I can't trust men then either. I can't give out my phone number or personal information to someone I don't know either way.

Sometimes I'm staying up wondering:

  1. How on earth do people do this? How do they give out their number, and their trust, to some guy they talked to and then date.
  2. If I can't give a guy means to keep in touch with me, because it involves giving out private information, how do I get a boyfriend?
It seems the only other option is if a guy wants me, he has to know somebody already within my circle. That's someone I already know and trust trust and they go through them. That's how I got my first relationship and seems the most trustworthy.

The first time I tried giving my number out to a guy who asked, in hopes of setting up a date, it took all of five minutes after the first time he texted for it to be a nightmare.

He texted like three texts before I could answer one, with questions, and then pressuring on why I'm not answering. Then he got derogatory in flirtation, as I'll word it, and I just went and changed my number.

He showed up the next day to try and see me and my roomates sent him away, on my behalf, with the understanding that I wasn't interested. It was a total fiasco...which is why I can never give my number out to some guy I don't know and I don't understand how people do it.

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