She had a baby mattress on top of her bed, and was sleeping on said mattress, which I moved to use her bed.
I had trouble sleeping, an underlying fear of getting lice again and even seeing Aaliyah scratch at her head once in the middle of the night. I still do.
I give it two and a half stars out of five. Two for actually finding sleep. Point five for the struggle.
6:12 a.m. And I just finished web surfing and my dailies. That's all I can say.
9:10 a.m. I came out to the living room and watched Forrest Gump, then Supernatural. Aaliyah went off to school and I spent the past couple hours drawing. I call it 'The Tungsten Trials' which is a phrase that has been stuck in my head the past couple days, completely made up. Sounds like it'd be a great book though.
9:19 a.m. Maranda looks so beautiful while she's sleeping with Drake, my nephew, her son.
10:16 a.m. World's Dumbest Criminals is on. Not a fan. Someone else put it on so I need to get my mp3 player. don't I?
10:57 a.m. I did just that and flipped through magazines, took some fun pictures. Wouldn't mind editing.
11:23 a.m. Maranda and I have been talking about going to the mall this weekend. It should be fun. I like bonding with people when they let me in.
I've been taking a LOT of pictures lately, like, seriously. I wish I could have a doctor's appointment today.
11:57 a.m. I randomly decided to save HQ versions of my sketchbook pages...not sure how up to date I am on saving those but I hope to fix it soon. :D
12:01 p.m. I think...somehow..I may want to start editing the Dream Doctor again..if depression or Lackadaisy don't intercede.
12:52 p.m. I edited various chapters. Mostly renamed the character Dr. Turner to Dr. Meyers since the character relationship between him and Tourniquet was too obvious. Can't wait to order my book.
1:14 p.m. Thought about getting new Wal-Mart prints and changed my mind.
2:17 p.m. The clinic hasn't called me back after hours and I cried. I'm tired and depressed. I ate macaroni and string cheese just now, with tea. Earlier I was shopping online, like looking at pics and amazon and stuff, and I made a little collage which is drying now.
Anyway, I don't think God wanted me to have an appointment today. Part of the reason He made me poor I guess. Just saying. I just can;t. The clinic won't call back, there is no money, no time (the appointment is in two hours and there's already been plans to pay a fine for skipping the appointment), no transportation, only God. So it's up to Him what happens. It's not easy is all. I waited all month for this which is probably why this is so hard. It's not nothing to me, you know?
So I'm crying...again. Not because it feels better but because that's how I'm reacting. Oi. I really needed this.
Rob sent this: "I remember something my old sensei used to tell me in martial arts, which is regardless of your environment, use what you can to your advantage, even if it's completely hostile there is almost always something that can be used as a boon, so even with how things are you can try to get the fee waived, when you get back we can try to find some kind of subsidized health care if one exists, all it takes is research and action."
2:32 p.m. I'm chatting with Rob and airing my grievances. That's all.
3:05 p.m. I took some time to walk outside a tiny bit and I slept a tiny bit and Aaliyah is home. I could go for a real nap though, if that were possible.
In a dream world, I could go to the dollar store and pick up some more glue sticks and watercolors, since I'm on my last legs with both but I don't think I could. Last legs would have to do.
3:27 p.m. Miracle of God, the fee was waived and we'll have to get me on Medicaid and try this again. :P Feeling better in case it isn't obvious.
|Bonfire that started before leaving for the store.|
6:13 p.m. I napped for like a half hour and then got a ride up to the dollar store. I got watercolors, more stick glue (cause I often stock up on glue) and a sprite.
DJ is being super generous tonight. I gave him a crabby patty gummy and he gave me M&M's and I think...headphones...Aaliyah is fetching them. Nice night.
Aaliyah has my old watercolors and is using them. For some reason, my post keeps italicizing my letters, so apologies there.
6:50 p.m. Not time for videos Aaliyah. Journal time.
6:56 p.m. I don't want to play Neopets games, Aaliyah Sorry.....Oi.
7:08 p.m. I hate to say it but the bonfire is too NSFW for me, unlike at home where they care about keeping it clean. Oi.
My digestive system is acting up tonight...I think it was the Fiber One bars, which is okay.
I say 'okay' a lot. I just wish this home felt more like the second home it should be. Once again, out of a great many, only a small few speak to me, like Maranda, or Mom in our intimate moments.
Don't be surprised if, like last time by the end of the week, I'm left hungering for the unfulfilled need of constant companionship.I'm not trying to be sad, just saying. I have to know what to expect until my expectations, by some miracle of God in Christ Jesus, are exceeded.
7:19 p.m. Changed my desktop background. I'm still kinda needing a nap. Oh, and I snuck some chicken out of DJ's bowl of chicken and yellow rice in the fridge. Oi.
7:29 p.m. Had, or, still having a chat with April on Skype. Need a computer break soon. Amen, Amen.
8:13 p.m. DJ used my computer and we've been watching movies. Enough stroganoff for a dozen people is being cooked by a woman in the house. Watching Shark tank though.
Oh!! DJ wants to take me out to dinner this weekend. WINGS!! Yay! So happy. And Maranda wants to hang out at the mall with me, even though she's not that fond of malls, but this is lovely. I can be social.
7:37 p.m. DJ said we can go to the mall first and see if I want anything, if I do, we skip dinner. If not, then we can have a walk around the mall AND go to dinner afterwards. Sounds like a win win for me.
8:39 p.m. I just had a shower and dinner, now watching Fred Claus.
8:53 p.m. Listened to music and watching Fred Claus now.
9:18 p.m. Pictures are due on the 20th. I am not. I tried to get someone **coughcough** Rick to bring them over, with a photo album, when they arrive but we'll just have to see, you know.
DJ's tv turned off on its own...again. That means I may make the meager attempt at sleeping. Whether successful or not, I don't know. It would also determine if this is really the end of updates or not.
Mom is working from dawn to late night again. Oi. Poor dear.
I guess I am feeling kinda tired. All Glory, Praise, Thanks, and all things be to God on the Highest forever and ever in Jesus Name, Amen! God Bless! Jesus Died, Risen, Saves!