Friday, December 19, 2014

Fighting The Cold

6:57 a.m. Just as the title says, I'm fighting the cold weather this morning. The house has poor insulation qualities, even with windows. Anyway, after getting off last night, leaving of where I did on my entry, I went to bed...waking up at 1:30 a.m. and taking my medicine, then went back to bed.

I slept until around just now and in stark contrast to my previous night, I slept well.

7:20 a.m. April's phone is doing the thing where it refuses to charge, instead it restarts over and over. Also, did my neopets dailies and checked my social networks. God, it's so cold this morning and the one thing, in all my planning, I didn't bring was a jacket!! I wear jackets like every day it seems! O.o Why?!

7:28 a.m. The charge is working now. Still cold...I have the movie line 'not to go gallivanting after pirates' stuck in head. Guess which movie it's from.....gallivanting is the main word here.

11:12 a.m. I woke up at 10:45 a.m. and played with Harmony and fed her some apples. April's phone also finally charged. It's still cold, just not as cold as it was earlier this morning. Jesus.

11:33 a.m. Got my netbook, Harmony has her play computer and Mickey Mouse Clubhouse. Babysitting, but I'm not opposed. I got commissioned again for art, this time by Jen's boyfriend. He actually wants a drawing of him picking his nose....I need to stay positive though.

11:43 a.m. Time to put the netbook down.

12:09 p.m. Played with Harmony a bit and now trying to put her down for a nap, since this is around her nap time anyway. She's whining a lot, poor baby.

12:42 p.m. I had ravioli, edited my drawing (the most recent one which reminds me I need to take the photo) and organized my stuff together so it's not all over the place. Harmony is, surprisingly, still not asleep. I left kids tv on for her though, first Mickey, now Doc McStuffins. Maybe she already napped, idk. She seemed tired. She's definitely awake.

1:04 p.m. I let Harmony play a while and then the drowsiness hit. I let Jen know but she suggested putting Harmony down for a nap because it's time, so I am. I can't seem to get comfortable in her soft bed. It smells funny to me.I'm so tired though...

3:04 p.m. I submitted another story to the Neopian times for Ogrin day. I'm slowly reaching the avatar and I'm super excited!

3:32 p.m. After some advice, I tried laying Harmony down again...with no tv and NOT being in there, it finally worked after all these hours. Jen is still gone...after four hours. I'm still needlessly exhausted and tired.

3:35 p.m. Checked my email. Right now I'm listening to music on the big headphones.

3:37 p.m. If anyone ever wondered what its like to have invisibility, just ask me, while I stay here. I know all too well, which is why I don't wish for it to be my power.

I can ask something to someone's face without so much as a glance, like a ghost in a movie. It's sad but it's what I've come to expect of my life.

Maybe it's because I'm too different, I don't oppose people but we don't click either....back to being different. I'm probably thinking this stuff, though all too true, because of the onset of depression...or maybe acknowledging furthers it, though true, I don't know.

How is someone happy with being invisible? Why does someone have to come to a point where they feel certain that they have to consider themselves that?

4:01 p.m. Talked to April. I updated my FB status: Thank God for friends. I have some days at Moms where I feel like a ghost, vapor, or invisible but she reminds me that people, family, like Mom, Grandpa, Jen, and DJ know what I'm worth and that I'm not those things.

4:15 p.m. I feel better with April's advice. It matters...the ones who are talking to me and making the effort to have me in their life. They know what I'm worth. If the others don't, quit trying to make it happen. They've made their choice.

4:45 p.m. Took photos for fun, other than that it was sitting around and watching That 70's Show and meandering.

4:50 p.m. Added photos to today's post which makes me happy. I'm really just trying to fill up space. All Glory, Praise, Thanks, and all things be to God on the Highest forever and ever in Jesus Name, Amen! Jesus Christ is Lord, Risen from the dead for our Sins. Amen, in Jesus Name. God is Able!

5:27 p.m. I have been relaxing. Deleted my FB post...that is all.

5:56 p.m. Fed Harmony and afterwards, she did the cutest thing where she let the dog lick her hand. Aaliyah is playing with her now. Jen is still gone...

6:39 p.m. Jen is home with spicy cheetos fries. I just had some cube steak and it was yummy. I've been hanging out with Grandpa. He says the reason I'm treated the way I am is they've formed cliques in the house.

Awesome shot of Grandpa by the fire, hence the orange.
7:36 p.m. Enjoyed the firs with Grandpa and now watching The Polar Express with Aaliyah. 

9:00 p.m. Watched it with her, had dinner, and a That 70s Show marathon. Rested a bit and ready to shower and go to bed. 

9:18 p.m. Done. Bed. 


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