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Monday, December 22, 2014

I Can't Sleep.


4:39 a.m. I can't sleep. I've had very little sleep. Aaliyah's toy dresser kept playing music on it's own which crept me out. I tried sleeping in the living room while Carrie was ending, new version, and listening to nature sounds. Nothing.

I got up and drew, first a no reference practice and then drawing everyone in the room...and my thumb.

I had the urge to be on the computer. I missed yesterday's advent calender for neo. :/ Ahhh well. And...I'm watching Titanic. All Glory, Praise, Thanks, and all things be to God on the Highest forever and ever in Jesus Name, Amen! God is Able! Jesus Loves, Lives, Died, Rose, Saved!

4:55 a.m. I didn't miss my dailies today. Going now, bye!

9:15 a.m. I managed to sleep. Then Grandpa woke me up to two police searching across the street from us and a chopper going over our neighborhood. I heard sirens earlier. I don't know what's been going on but this is what I woke up to.

I'm chatting with Rob. Every piece of home is great. Like I have nature sounds of my front yard which is actually soothing.

9:35 a.m. I'm thinking of writing.

10:07 a.m. Hard to concentrate with a baby wailing. Oi. :P But I got the boss fight written and hopefully will stick to it since it's been changed so many times. I got one more chapter left and still have a lot of editing to do. Oi and a Vey.

10:38 a.m. They are still searching. I wrote a little more, then had Ravioli. Afterwards, I hung out outside with the other adults and Drake as they chatted about what was going on.

11:25 a.m. I tried to rest a bit and then drew something....quite speedily.

11:57 a.m. I just finished chapter eighteen and I was honestly too tired to edit it. It's this depression thing, it leaves me not feeling up for things I normally had the energy to do and unlike before, I don't have the energy to edit, throughly, eighteen pages of writing.

12:44 p.m. People have been cleaning and I've helped a bit. We have so much dirt trekked in the house that my feet have been black all week...it'll be hard to come back from. I don't want to walk on the mopped floors.

1:02 p.m. Helped watched Drake and stuck on another That 70s Show Marathon, lol.

1:19 p.m. I had hot fries Jen got me, water, and chicken noodle soup and I've been watching Youtube on tv.

6:20 p.m. After a movie fail on Nightmare Before Christmas, I went to bed and slept until 5:15 and Maranda took me to Taco Bell...which, so I won't be rude, choose not to eat yet because dinner is about to cook. Joe is installing a new light in the kitchen and he turned the old entertainment center space into an accent wall.


We have no tree here this year, which is fine, because as soon as we put one up, it would have to be taken down again.

7:11 p.m. I have been meandering mostly and drinking tea. Not much else. I did watch That 70's Show a bit before finally giving in and putting on Metallica: Through The Never since nobody is paying attention to it anyway...which is fine because my mind is often worrying about whether I've picked something everyone would like (unlike Nightmare Before Christmas earlier)

7:36 p.m. Psst. One day closer to heaven. Anyway...I got cleaned up for dinner, which is almost ready. Looks like we should be getting a tree anyway..this late..three days before Christmas. O.o

8:08 p.m. Had a mini chicken quesadilla alongside my  chicken and potatoes dinner and a side of Pepsi. All full and still enjoying the movie. Joe and Mom already left to get the tree...and I can't wait to put my presents underneath it! Woot!

8:22 p.m. Just checking the social networks.

8:30 p.m. I've been lounging and meandering a lot today. I'm not sure what it is...perhaps its a vacation?  I normally don't rest easy, still don't. Whenever I want rest, I just get the urge to get back up again because it feels odd to me. When I am working on something passionately, its hard for me to take a long break so I tend to recharge quickly and get back to it.

9:02 p.m. I'm feeling restless. I can't go take a long walk in this neighborhood. I tried walking around the house and outside but it's weird. I want to move, but I don't, but I have to move.

9:04 p.m. Profanity is a pet peeve of mine. I use loud music to block out people who swear like sailors...on top of speaking things of an overtly violent and discomforting nature. It's very worth it and effective. Right now I have Master of Puppets blaring in my headphones and the world around me is more like a colorful silent movie.

9:29 p.m. I chatted about it to April and Rob and by the way, April wants me to wait until after Christmas Day to come back which I will gladly do. :D P.S. Mom came home with a four foot tree.

9:32 p.m. I'm logging off and will have more to say later. Goodbye. God Bless, Jesus Loves, Lives, Saves! All Glory, Praise, Thanks, and all things be to God on the highest forever and ever in Jesus Name, Amen! God is Able!

1:05 a.m. Comforted Mom tonight. I also tried to sleep but ended up writing poetry and then in fact, edited Chapter Eighteen, which will need further editing, especially in spelling, in the future.

Mom was worried tonight that she could only get me only one gift and I told her there was no need to worry about it. I didn't need a gift at all and wasn't even expecting one as in my family its usually kids only who get  the gifts on Christmas, as thats what can be afforded. But she got it and I was thankful to God.

She also didn't get the big tree she wanted at the last minute but we are happy with what we have.

I've been blocking out more bad stuff with music, even as I edited, by the way. I think I have a rough night's sleep ahead...even if it's already morning. Netbook battery is dying and I have to go.

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