For the first time in what felt like forever, I put on makeup. Seriously, I thought my makeup box was gathering dust. I looked very different to myself though..'photo-shopped' even. I treated it more like a costume then some extension of my natural beauty that was already there. Which was fine, I can a costume quite happily.
The handiman came over and fixed the outlets, among other things. I learned we were also in one of the costliest cities, even for a small town of Fort Meade, to use electricity.
We live in a little house and the electric bill is nearly three hundred bucks. Oh Lord, help us. Pray for us if you're reading this, just for a quick second, in Jesus Name, Amen!
Anyway, I also made chicken and fettuccini alfredo last night for dinner.
There was the usual web surfing and Netflix..I also squeezed in a nap at some point that day..I think.
I had a series of weird dreams. I know Jonathan Rhys Meyers was in another (I still have to continue the dream project at some point) and I don't remember what it was about anymore. Something to do with him and two other women?
There was another about shopping with April, Rick, Rob, and her Mom.
I had all this money plus food stamps and when we got to the register, I got overwhelmed at how many non-food items they picked up so I tried to change my miind and get less. April was upset and suddenly, it was all food stamp items.
On the way to some old cabin, I slipped one foot into an inground pool, nearly dropping a camera case, with the camera still inside, in the water. Instead, it hit the cement. April pulled me up. When I tested the camera, it turned on but half the menu screen wouldn't display.
And we went up to the cabin and chatted. April was telling some story about putting a goldfish in pool water, with a little girl. I found this mysterious purse that I was sure belonged to my big sister as a little girl.
I was telling April that I was sure it belonged to her.
Suddenly in front of me, I saw this window which said Nancy and some business name.
At this point, I got up to call Mom, but for some reason I changed my mind. That was the last thing I remember.
I woke up happy though. I was Praising God I could actually BREATHE!!! My nose wasn't congested anymore. I even cleaned the litter box in a good mood. :P
Not to mention that for once I'm waking up at a normal hour, for the first time I see in a long time. God Bless, Jesus Loves, Lives, Saves, Home nuggets. That's all.
9:58 a.m. And I'm happy. I added to my Single Woman blog, which really WAS a challenge, and did my dailies on Neopets. Right now, I'm feeling peckish.
Afterwards, I picked up snack donates for the gang and chips for me. I just got home and changed.
I'm leaving for Mom's tonight and heading to the doctor in the morning. the goal is to get my a therapist, psychiatrist, pschologist...whichever I'll need. Given my history though, I will go anywhere over than Peace River Center. I forgive them, but it was too traumatizing to ever return.
2:57 p.m. Uploaded the favorites to Instagram, 20 of them, actually. And I saved a few to be kept in whole. :) Can't wait to enjoy my chocolate donuts I brought home today. April seemed sad but she didn't say it.
3:39 p.m. I started my crafting on the old cell phone. More details later. For now, donuts and milk~ Yum!
4:19 p.m. I had a donut and some chips. It's been a good day today...
4:25 p.m. I wasn't going to post this video, where I'm being a bit childlike while alone...but I thought, 'Why not?' :) Just a reminder: You only live once.
Part of me wants to keep it boxed, and see if it will hit major stores...and sell the LE version OR I could do something even more awesome and sew my own clothes for it. ^.^ Dress up. I'm a kid at heart. What can I say?
6:42 p.m. My craft thing didn't work out. Oh well. Wondering when my ride is arriving to take me to Mom's house. She's out of state, by the way.
8:15 p.m. Playing too much Neo. No sign of anyone arriving to get me yet. My family are not the people who come to mind when it comes to punctuality, during situations involving myself. -_- Oi. Jesus have mercy.
9:06 p.m. Crying. They aren't coming tonight and I'm not surprised. I'm left waiting all night with all my stuff ready, then told I'm not being picked up until the next afternoon. I'm not mad, I'm upset.
I feel disrespected. I feel unhappy when someone says something will be done for me, doesn't do it, and then they shrug it off like it's no big deal.
I lost faith in people being on time, or sometimes, even keeping their word. I've been 'put off' for other things far too many times, on far too many occasions.
My needs get put on a back burner while people go about their lives. I am constantly on the back burner, here.
9:18 p.m. I'm just tired of people not keeping their commitments. It makes me feel like I'm not worth them doing that for me. So yeah, I'm depressed.
12:54 a.m. I went to bed, slept, and feel a 'little' better.
1:54 a.m. Wound up crying again. I always do when I end up explaining my situation. I break my own heart. I showered and dressed..thinking tomorrow will be a better day once this is all over with. God Bless, Jesus Loves, Lives, Saves! Glory, Thanks, Praise on High forever and ever in Jesus Name, Amen! God is Able!