A Daily Diary: October 2014


Thursday, October 30, 2014

It's After Midnight.

1:06 a.m. I finished updating my Single Woman blog. I still hope to design a cover for a book version as well. I let the person who started the challenge know since the challenge is her idea and the questions are hers. I'm not going public with it but if she decides she doesn't want her questions used, in her words, I can just completely reword them. Is that still legal? Like I said, it's non-commercial.

All Glory, Praise, Thanks, and all things be to God on the Highest forever and ever in Jesus Name, Amen! God is Able! 24 Now to him who is able to keep you from stumbling and to present you blameless before the presence of his glory with great joy, 25 to the only God, our Savior, through Jesus Christ our Lord, be glory, majesty, dominion, and authority, before all time and now and forever. Amen. Jude 1:24-25

1:50 a.m. I submitted part of the old draft to the first Chapter on the Dream Doctor sequel to my Writing Prompts (see sidebar) section for free use. I plan on heavily changing it anyway. Oh, and my computer slowed while sharing it to some communities so I had to restart the computer.

I'm waiting for April to fall asleep to do the graphics stuff. It's a long easier on her big screen. She says if she wakes up while I'm doing it that I'll have to wait for her to fall asleep again. I don't ask often so I hope we can get this thing done because it's very exciting. Meanwhile, I can gather my stock photos from DA.

2:11 a.m. Got my stock images! Would like to see if I can do this now...hmm?

2:17 a.m. Not asleep. -_- I may have to let my computer suffice.

6:32 a.m. Over four hours later but Praise God in Christ Jesus, the book cover is satisfactorily finished. I was relaly peeved while uploading though..like REALLY peeved, because they computer was being slow and did the thing where you type and then it SLOWLY types your words like 3 letters a second. -_-

I was able to move on once I closed the tabs on the browser. I HAD to have them open because I needed to link to the two stock owners whose stocks I used in the art.

Model: http://hiddenrelevance.deviantart.com/
Photographer: http://kymyume.deviantart.com/
Photo: The Bride 02

Castle Photographer: http://rivendell-photostock.deviantart.com/
Castle Photo:Sleeping Beautys castle

 The rest is digital painting  and my own personal private stock.

7:11 a.m. Browsed Neopets and I seriously need to get off the computer soon.

7:51 a.m. I ate some pasta, real food, finally, and watched Mysteries at the Museum. God has answered my Prayers. I get to see my family again today. Mom gets home at 2 and we'll see when she arrives, God Willing in Jesus Name, Amen!

It also means I have to pack soon, a few days of extraordinarily weak internet signals, bugs, and family time...as well as encountering the strangers in the household that pass through now.

9:51 a.m. I spent almost two hours on my book and it deleted itself, without a trace. That was dissappointing. :(

11:20 a.m. I took time away to read and Pray. Feeling better about the book thing. I'm even feeling motivated enough to write. Back to editing Chapter Ten! Starting....now?

1:13 p.m. Chapter Ten has gone into extensive editing and I think it's almost ready to be finished now. I just need a good read-aloud session with it to make sure everything is good. I can call Mom later and ask when she's coming. It rarely takes long for me to pack so I'm waiting until she's on her way.

Besides, all of my clothes are dirty, hence why I'm going over there because we don't own a washer. It's not a happy thing to only be able to wash clothes once every two weeks, when I have enough to last a little over a week. Bad. God bless and help us in Jesus Name, Amen! P.S. April is making hamburgers but I haven't eaten since this morning so I'm having crackers. God Bless, Jesus Loves, Lives, Saves! God is Able!!

1:55 p.m. I watched Mysteries at the Museum as I waited for the burgers to get done...then a little more of the show before watching the Space Satellite go over the Earth. I also have Milk Duds, twhich dwindle every week as we get a chocolate craving.

2:00 p.m. Mom just got off her flight and I'm seeing when she's coming. I can't wait to see my FAMILY! Oh my GOD! It's been a few weeks.

2:12 p.m. I'm packed. Mom said she has some running around to do first so...yeah. God Bless, Jesus Love, Lives, Saves, Homie! GOD is Able!

2:26 p.m. Meandering mostly. Mom said she has some things to do before she comes so that could mean it would be a while, or even a long while as it often goes, so I have plenty of time to sit tight.

April just asked how much is on my food stamps. I said a few cents. I bought gummies and a sour candy stick yesterday...the sour sticks, 15 cents, wasn't that great but the Welch's gummies were fabulous. But I had like 80 something cents then and sent like 40-50 of it yesterday I think. lol. God Bless, Jesus Saves! Loves! Forgives! Accept Him cause' He's Coming Soon! Jesus is Lord and God raised Him from the Dead.

2:40 p.m. Donny is here. Poor Rob can't catch a nap and stomped to the door. We forgive. :) And I've just been on a satellite site figuring out my location on a map so I can watch when the satellite. :P I can be so silly sometimes.

3:44 p.m. It's been an hour and Chapter Ten is finished editing, for now I think. Mom still has not arrived or called back. I'm still wondering if it'll be much longer. April and Rob are back from chatting with Donny.

3:54 p.m. Mom isn't coming here until tonight..that gives me time to rest I guess. I have been up since midnight and it's almost 4 p.m. now. Good long sleep will definitely do the job. God Bless, Jesus Loves, Lives, Saves! God is Able!!

Plenty of Rest and a Full Afternoon. Praise Jesus!

1:01 p.m. I slept as much as as I possibly could, from after 4 p.m. to nearly 2 a.m. in the morning. I got up and meandered online until sunrise. I also edited Part Seize and made a photo collage of yesterday's silly 'fierceness' activities. God is Able!

Sausage McMuffin and VOSS Water.
After around 7 a.m. or so I left for McDonalds, hoping to have the first hot breakfast 'out' since I can remember. Biking was twice as hard as usual. I was in my 'last resort' jeans, the really small but small enough to JUST fit though uncomfortable, jeans.

While there, I waited and chatted with one woman who was telling me what a circus McDonalds has become since her day. There was a line and there was only one young woman prepping food.

Thought these are awesome x-mas gifts.

After getting my food and taking my seat, I was pleased to listen to CTN and instantly seeing that God had a message for me about giving...considering I also sent out some Prayers requests this morning. I think it was something about Joshua and Samuel..I need to get back in Church, I know.

I left and then headed to both Dollar General stores, again to meander, and nobody was hiring. ..without an online application. It seems like every time I went to McDonalds, thinking I could work there again, I see another employees going through my toughest challenges right in front of me..and I get discouraged. Dollar General is hiring..I think. She didn't say she wasn't and handed me a plastic bag, saying to apply at the website labeled on the bag.

I then went to one of my favorite little thrift shops, just to pass the time. I was waiting for my other thrift shop to open...with their half off sale being today, but it wouldn't open for close to another half hour. By now, it was around 9:30-40 ish a.m.  in the morning. I chatted lightly about Halloween plans but they said for Fort Meade, Halloween has come and gone.

I next took a light stroll to the ultra fancy, shiny, luxurious antique shop which was just opening up...the lights were still off when I got there and the owner was moving to switch them on. I took a selfie, go figure.

I could be seen browsing here every other week.
Then I finally went to my favorite thrift shop, seeking out a book by Charles Heston, the actor, that I had on my mind after deciding not to buy it on Tuesday. t's mostly like someone took his daily diaries and published them in one book but the entries are almost all looking like they are about a pragraph each.

Today it was half off! It wasn't in the usual book section...in fact it was right on the counter, not yet put away in two days, along with other previously donated books.

A bigger blessing came along when I went back to the book part of the shop. The hardcovers are typically 50 cents, which is what this was, and on sale it was a quarter. Well, God did something cool for me. Right on top of a rack of paperbacks was a quarter, and I bought the book right away.

Oh, and I took my purse instead of my backpack today. It didn't handle great on the handlebars of my bike or my shoulders, but it handled nonetheless.

I got a Children's book I liked about a haunted house, written in the format of characters writing letters to each other. Another was an autobiography from Frank Sinatra's daughter. I also picked out a couple magazines.

Blueberry in my FAVORITE dum-dum pop flavor.
I was thinking about volunteering but kinda challenged myself, saying 'Maybe if they ask, we'll see," and actually thought they wouldn't. But, moments later, a blonde woman guiding another volunteer on sorting the books said I should ask to volunteer and she'll put me on the book section. Kid you not, I wind up there about every other week and scoured a LOT of them, like oh my God, a lot of books! :D

Inwardly  I still wasn't sure. This place was still fun but I don't know if I want it to be work. I also wondered if while sorting books, I'd do something like come across one I am really interested in and get set to buy it later, ha ha!!

Oh! And I got a hand mixer!! Two bucks, half off, and God did we need one. No more hand stirring my chocolate chip cookies. :)

I rode home as usual, and went straight to my room, where I changed into shorts, laid in bed, and did not want to move. Then, I got up and had a little Devotional, played Instagram, and re-organized my very messy bookshelf. I also tidied up a little more of my room.

After that, I had yogurt, watched a little of Mysteries at the Museum, saw a bit of the Earth via Satellite and here I am! I just spent the past 18 minutes writing this story about my long day...a day that's not even over yet. God Blessed, Bless Him, Jesus Love, Lives, Saves! Hallelujah! God is Able!!

P.S. Thinking of turning my single woman's blog into a book. OOOHHHH....am I ever. Not one for sale to the public, obviously, just one copy of a self published version via the Blurb company.

1:31 p.m. That finishes the photos so far today. ^_^ I uploaded some older ones to Instragram but don't see the need to re-add them here. God Bless, as always, Jesus Love, Live, Save! P.S. God Bless Orange Juice! Yum!!!

1:45 p.m. I had a little Youtube and that's it! I need a nap. Dude, I'm tired. :P Bye home nuggets!

8:47 p.m. April made food....I was having a strange dream.Oh, and I slept all day. XD

9:00 p.m. I called Mom this afternoon. I can go over this weekend. :D

12:10 a.m.  So, I had three more hours of sleep and showered, dressed....now thinking of making a cover for that single woman's book. Cover art...to start. God Bless, Jesus Love, Live, Save! For once, it's a new day so I'll be starting a new entry.

Wednesday, October 29, 2014

I Finally Let Myself Write. I Haven't Slept Yet.

8:41 a.m. I spent time this morning updating Seize, like I said I would. At first it was on the larger laptop, then I jumped on the chance to use April's 'much faster' computer while she left for the dentist...around three hours ago.

Shoutout to God and His people. :P Jesus Love, Live, Saves! Bless!
I web surfed, took the cat out, and let the stray, 'Hissy' come in and eat. I organized photos, checked out the latest blogs as well as doing a little networking. Anything but sleep for now.

My Cross necklace kept breaking..due to moisture on the cord since I wear it even when showering, and so I finally ripped it off my neck and put it on my wrist. It was practically a choker for a while but, for some reason, I can't breathe comfortably when something is too close to my neck.

I've been watching THIS and waiting for a the live 'daylight' HD satellite shot of Earth over Florida. Been on this site for the past two days now. Cookies have to be enabled for it to work but it's not biggie since it's a '.gov' site anyway. :P I trust it.

Also, ever since I put my new beanie hat on this morning, I've had trouble keeping it off. I tried, but then I immediately put it back on because apparently my head likes being this warm. :P Also, I'm sure it's the best quarter I've spent in a while.

8:52 a.m. April has returned and shall be taking over her awesome computer soon. She says the dentist was surprisingly fast. Bye!!!

9:07 a.m. On my netbook now. I just saw the bottom tip of Florida and I'm thinking...mmm neeaattt!! I think it would show more lately. I mean, at first it seemed like, and sometimes is, watching paint dry but it's actually quite interesting..if not more mesmerizing if you imagine yourself floating above the earth and seeing all of this. Glory, Praise, Thanks, and all things be to God on the Highest forever and ever in Jesus Name, Amen! God is Able!!

9:11 a.m. I just found out that this blog has been viewed in 15 countries.

10:31 a.m. That's enough, Neopets. I have to stop myself before I get too absorbed. April went to bed earlier by the way. She didn't try sleeping until 3 a.m. got up at 5, and arrived here just after 8 after having a tooth pulled. That will wear anyone out I suppose.

10:44 a.m. Caught a screen capture before the camera went out...right at the good part with the most land showing. It should be heading around Florida again...MUCH later.

I'm somewhere down there...I think. Source: http://eol.jsc.nasa.gov/HDEV/

11:03 a.m. I've been looking at space pictures of Florida and night time in Las Vegas. I see why April must love space so much, though. SPPAACCEEEEE!!!!!

11:33 a.m. Going on an adventure.More soon. bYE!!~! God Bless, Jesus Loves, Lives, Saves! God is Able! Safe journal, Chel! Love ya'll and God be with you.

2:08 p.m. Over two and a half hours later and I've returned, with lots of pictures and a REAL ADVENTURE. But first...MUST HAVE AIIIRRR!!!!!

3:04 p.m. Having fun editing two short videos. You can see I had a little TOO much fun...

3:34 p.m. After enough editing, I got the results I wanted. Say hello to silliness meets fierce! Just imagine me doing this alone today, in between cars passing by, on some abandoned stage. Awkward..yet lovely.

4:11 p.m. That's enough internet and photo/video related anything. I think I've been up since around 10 p.m. last night which makes...18 hours or so without sleep. And see all this energy I burned today? O.o God, how even?

Tuesday, October 28, 2014

It's a BEAUTIFUL morning!!

8:08 a.m. I spent most of the morning watching Satellite videos of space. Then I had a nice morning walk where I took a lovely photo.

The best part was putting on my favorite skirt, and eventually, spinning for the camera. Let me tell you it was awesome! It took a bit to get Windows Movie Maker running (yes, I still use it) BUT Praise Jesus, I got the video clipped where I wanted.

Then I made a GIF..which I didn't expect to loop perfectly but it did and I'm all like:

Woowww...it LOOKS how I feel...
8:40 a.m. It took A LOT of messing around, including sending things to the Skype account on April's phone but by the grace of God in Christ Jesus...it actually got on Instagram with music! YAY!!

8:49 a.m. I danced in front of the camera again but it just wasn't the same.

9:09 a.m. Even after some meandering, I attempted to sleep but sleep did not come. God is Able in Jesus Name, Amen!

9:26 a.m. I'm just letting the morning pass by. Seriously considering another thrift shop day...yes, even this early in the morning. Pray for my health though, in Jesus Name, Amen! God is Able!!

1:31 p.m. It's been four hours and I'm back,,,must drink, air, sleep. Praise Jesus! Miracles happened today.

10:42 p.m. Woke up from a strange series of dreams. Such as getting 4m NP for my birthday, playing stocks on Neopets, and meeting Jonathan Rhys Meyers baby...as well as baby sitting. He talked about the name of the baby, his last name being pronounced "Gwa-something" because he corrected me in saying it didn't necessarily have to be Meyers.

And again I dream of him in an American Accent. It's my subconscious, that's probably why, but still. Dude, he is Irish, lol. He always has this specific American accent in my dreams..doesn't even sound anything like the one he puts on when he's acting, lol.

Eating popcorn, need a shower, feeling rested and pretty. Yes, I slept nine hours. Part of me was shooting for morning but I was surprised.

10:51 p.m. I'm in a state of extreme relaxation. Today, at the thirft shop, I was told to start leaving my backpack at the counter since people have been whispering about it. I tend to put stuff in there that I don't want to carry and check out at the end.

I'm fine. I'll use a basket like everyone else, right? :) P.S. Never shoplifted, never will in case anyone was thinking it.

On my way back, I had my black peacoat tied around my waist and the 'tie' part got caught in the chains...and tangled. The bike was immovable. So I knelt down as I did it, kept Praying to Jesus as I patiently untangled the mass, over and over, and it actually worked! So I had a Praise Jesus, Praise God miracle and I wasn't stranded miles from home on a bike.

I didn't pick up much at the thrift shop. A magazine and a book, I think. Oh! And a black beanie! :D For a quarter. I wanted one of those. It was a little torn but that's okay.

Another thing in regards to an earlier post about my body. Today it's the exact opposite. My self esteem about my figure is up and I HAVE the body I'm used to, Thanks to God, water, and more cardio.

It's not a dramatic change but it was enough of a change to drop down to normal.

11:32 p.m. I'm elated to say God blessed me with another entry into the Neopian Times! I'm going for ten entries to get the avatar on Neopets but I'm VERY VERY excited.

11:53 p.m. I forgot I had more pictures and I just uploaded them to Instagram. Oi. I have a chapter that needs editing soon.

12:00 a.m. :) It's Midnight...I'm gonna be up a long while again. Oi Vey. Anywho...I just got my images from OkCupid so they can go upo some other time. I still have the earth satellite up which is cool...lot of brown, clouds, and blue of course, but cool.

The thing is, it goes black when it hits the night side of earth until it comes on the Sunny side of earth again. I think you have to wait over an hour for it to get back to something viewable each time, lol.

12:30 a.m. I cut things from a Spanish magazine. Didn't find much reference, except for a picture of Natalie Dormer. But I did find a few things to clip and save. :)

12:39 a.m. I'm off to watch tonight's newest episode of Supernatural! Pray for me in Jesus Name, amen! And Glory, Praise, Thanks to God on the Highest forever and ever in Jesus Name, Amen! God is Able!

1:24 a.m. The boys are back! Yay, awesome show.

1:55 a.m. I just finished properly updating the single woman's blog, accidentally missed a day, though I tried, but I also fixed the time zones so everything properly published. :D Need a bathroom break. 29 Jesus said to him, “Have you believed because you have seen me? Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed.” John 20:29

3:08 a.m. I came, I edited, and wound up with a cat in my lap. Played with Instagram. Time for dailies! God is Able in Jesus Name, Amen!

3:42 a.m. Dailies done. God Bless, Jesus Loves, Lives, Saves! God is Able!

3:59 a.m. Well, the cat finally got up...cause I moved him. Seriously considering working on Part Seize because honestly, it NEEDS to be done. P.S. God has a plan..and one of them has me wanting to make a bunch of books even though I can't afford to publish them. lol. Better is open rebukethan hidden love. Faithful are the wounds of a friend; profuse are the kisses of an enemy. Proverbs 27:5-6 

Monday, October 27, 2014

I'm Still Awake

5:59 a.m. I'm still awake, making macaroni, hot dogs, and fries this time in the morning. I have so much work to do on Chapter Ten that I quickly tired of it made a long list of things that NEED to get done before I can call it finished...instead. Now, ladies and gentlemen, NETFLIX.

Pray I'll go enjoy the afternoon sun again as opposed to being in bed from sunrise to sundown, in Jesus Name, Amen! God is Able!

8:33 a.m. I ate my food and sat through another Mysteries at the Museum Marathon. By the way, it's now sunrise. God Bless, Jesus Loves, Lives, Saves! Hallelujah!

9:40 a.m. Well, I let the cat out, took a walk around the country and saw the rolling sunlit hills and trees which seemed to go on for acres..and took the pictures which wouldn't do their true beauty justice. Took many, many selfies and only saved a select few. Edited colors, played Instagram, and all around spent this morning being awake doing silly things.

I think, and I could be wrong, that I've been up for eleven hours now and need a shower..and sleep.

3:03 p.m. I had a shower, dressed and went to bed just after 10 a.m. I don't 'feel' like I had as much sleep as I did but Praise Jesus, I had it. waking up and having leftovers now.

3:30 p.m. Well, I haven't gone back to bed yet. I still have daylight I can experience for the moment. I ate my food, watched Mysteries at the Museum, and have decided to go back and edit Chapter Ten again...which should be a lot of work, you know? God Bless, Jesus Loves, Lives, Saves! Glory, Praise, Thanks, and all things be on High forever and ever in Jesus Name, Amen! God is Able!

5:11 p.m. I'm suffering from an extraordinarily irritated urinary issue, God forbid in Jesus Name, Amen! God is Able! BUT Chapter Ten has made progress in editing. however, it's full of one backstory, a lot of dialogue, and no heightened conflict. -flops backward- what on Earth am I going to do? Even I know the reader would find it boring, if not put the book down at this point.

5:48 p.m. I took a long walk. I prayed, meanwhile, and thought about character arcs and relationships. Still have no idea how to instill the major conflict in the scene of this chapter (which has a lot of revelation in it, but after editing, not TOO much) and it's just a calm moment in the story where people are talking and Tourniquet gets to wake up. I'm hot. More soon...God Bless, Jesus Loves, Lives, Saves! God is Able!

6:22 p.m. Played Neopets and checked the news. Still having horrible urinary tract problems today.

11:10 p.m. I just woke up, having slept again. I felt extraordinarily hot and thirsty, and slept on both the couch and my bed, but somehow I managed to sleep for five more hours. Strange...and now I'm feeling a bit hungry.

11:51 p.m. Made quesadillas and super happy!

12:56 a.m. I finished catching up on Youtube videos after eating...need a shower..and a place to do laundry AGAIN. Oi Yey.

1:33 a.m. I've just been editing this blog with pictures and whatnot..still very much need a shower. I also haven't updated Part Seize in a while with my entries which is something I'd really like to do at some point. Still having a bothersome urinary tract infection. :(

God Bless, Jesus Loves, Lives, Saves! In Jesus Name, Amen! Glory, Praise, Thanks, and all things be to God on the Highest forever and ever in Jesus Name, Amen! God is Able! “Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be satisfied.” Matthew 5:6

1:52 a.m. I just showered, cleaned up, and whatnot. I wonder if I'm up for editing my novel soon.

I like the tiny bird on the wire.

2:02 a.m. Shouldn't you be writing?

3:17 a.m. I'm FINALLY getting somewhere with Chapter Ten. So much drama and mystery. Fabulous. 

3:38 a.m. Did my Neopets dailies and kinda done with the computer. Praise Jesus! God is Able! 

5:17 a.m. Chapter Ten is edited and needs further editing still..though I uploaded it to the book's blog. But alas, it has SO much work to be better!

I honestly can't wait to move onto Eleven but I have to get this right. Ah, the redunancies in some paragraphs. Silver hair and clipboard, clamoring with hands here, stretching out hands there...etc. 

And my urinariry, tract, in the name of Christ Jesus my Lord, has been relentless. Oi Vey.

Sunday, October 26, 2014

Stayed Up Until Morning Again

7:37 a.m. Spent five hours on a new drawing, just like I thought about doing.

7:59 a.m. It was hard to get the pictures correctly uploaded, then arranged the way I wanted. After I finished drawing at seven, I had hot pockets and watched SPN and then took the cat out. THEN a little more SPN and I tried to write the entry but  Firefox froze and I had to get it back.

8:08 a.m. I left OkCupid open by accident. I appreciate the messages from guys but I don't want to talk much...and please no more men nearly twice my age. Someone's gotta be at my side who can go relate to the troubles of a person of my age WITH me, rather than way ahead of me. 

10:02 p.m. Talked to Mom about illness. She took it in a totally different way than I expected...that is, a good way. I admit, I was crying from the get-go even though she was calm and re-assuring. And it woke April up and when I handed the phone to her to explain things better to Mom, I was outright shaking. Then again it was also a cold morning so it was probably both nerves and temperature related.

We'll try. God willing. To get meds, therapy, apply for social security, get a lawyer, and get this benfit money to afford meds and therapy and the lawyer would be paid if I win. That's how it goes. My insurance suns up next month so we don't have much time. I have even less considering Mom is the only one willing to come out to where I am and she has to be out of state a lot now for weeks at a time to work.

Anyway, after things got calm, I enjoyed a morning bonfire and cocoa with Donny and Rob to beat the cold.I went to bed sometime after nine, and stayed asleep. Got up at 1 to eat pizza and slept until now. Finally awake and enjoying my leftover pasta. P.S. the sketchbook is dry. God Bless, Jesus Love, Lives, Saves! Halleuljah! God is Able!

10:52 p.m. I watched the show, brushed my hair and teeth, and then checked my social networks. Thus, here I am. Likely until morning..again. I am seeping into a 'sleep ALL day and stay up ALL night' funk but this too, shall pass. God Bless, Jesus Loves, Lives, Saves! God is Able! Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in Christ with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places. . . .Ephesians 1:3

1:21 a.m. It took an extraordinarily long time for each task, but I re-took photos for my giant sketchbook in order to have better image quality photos than Instagram..some were harder to take than others due to shadows getting in the way..poor lighting. Also, had to very slowly get them all resized, clean my computer out, and individually enhance each one for better viewing. All in all, Oi! BUT I'm also thinking of making a cover for my sketchbook. God Bless, Jesus Loves, Lives, Saves, Homies, God is Able!! Hallelujah!

This is still one of the favorite drawings that I've done lately.
1:54 a.m. I just did my post for the Single Woman blog, check it out on the sidebar if you're interested. And I am a fan of this woman on here called Anna Nicholls, I think her name is, I don't want to post a link yet but she seems pretty awesome....especially her Youtube videos.

I keep wanting to decorate my sketchbook but..I also keep getting distracted. God Bless, Jesus Love, Live, Save as always. Later homies! Bye!

2:02 a.m. On second thought, I've changed my mind about the cover...should probably move to my room to write. Might be more comfy and it'll be easier to work while my computer charges. The plug is so far away in the living room that it frequently pops out of the laptop during use...oh dear..I feel another distraction coming on.

Popcorn, ginger ale, and Mysteries at the Museum.

2:17 a.m. I got distracted from my distraction and hung out with April and Rob. NOW I'm back!!

2:44 a.m. Have to come down from my frustration. Okay, so April says don't stick dry food on top of old went cat food and I had been 'meticulous' and I mean meticulous, about doing it. Then she finds out someone did it, ans when she asks me, I said no.

Then it's the ' well, nobody is saying who did it so one of you did.'

It really bothers me when I make the effort to do what I was supposed to do and then, even though I do, I am treated as if I still could be the one who did it or I'm a liar.

I tried no to stew, I couldn't...it goes down the line of thought: I've been meticulous>>>What am I getting in return if I'm accused of doing it anyway>>>I hate being accused of something I really, really, DID not do and I am going to make you understand that because it's insulting. and I then back around to the first statement. So it's a vicious cycle of thought.

I got to the point where I was going to Skype when Rob came and apologized and said he did it. So, as long as the mystery is solved, I can get over this now. We have a confession and since, God forbid, its needlessly stewing, I am trying to write and feel better.

I forgive in Jesus Name, Amen! We all seem to be past it anyway.

3:48 a.m.  So I watched more Netflix and then came around to playing my dailies on Neopets. :) All in all things went well. I know I didn't wake up TOO long ago but I'm also wondering if I should write or not...hmm...

4:16 a.m. I should have ended updates long ago. I updated my blog, the Illness Diaries..pretty much listing the same scenario with calling my Mom this morning. God Bless, Jesus Love, Live, Save! God is Able! 

Saturday, October 25, 2014

An All-Nighter.

10:59 p.m. You can look forward to me being up all night, since I slept an entire day. I did some Gospel spreading and site promotions. Added new blogs and deleted others. Really delighting in out young women of this generation. They are really positive and happy people from what I've found.

I also just revamped this blog with some artwork and more interesting stuff...figure it makes it look nicer and in some ways can be a bit more interact.

Jesus Came in a Body. Randomly said, true, and over with. Felt it in my heart to say it. :) God is Able and Glory, Praise, and Thanks be to Him on the Highest forever and ever in Jesus Name, Amen!

12:27 a.m. After scouring the house, I realized I threw out my favorite eraser in the trash, I fished it out with a Praise to God Christ Jesus I found it.

I sat down to pick out a reference photo for my next drawing. Instead, I jumped on the instinct to use up those magazine clippings I've been saving and making a full spread collage.

Copyrights forbid I post it, so I sha'nt. It's drying from all the stick glue, anyway. After all, they are mere copy-pastes rather than being painted over and made into one unified piece of art.

They are just stuff I found pretty, inspiring, photography, memorable ads, quotes, brief articles and whatnot. Magazine stuff. Most of it tends to go in a color scheme of pastels, pinks, and black and whites though. I must be drawn to the colors or something.

Anyway, I'm still up. Interested in getting my nightly bowl of popcorn and watching more Mysteries at the Museum.

1:25 a.m. Did that, showered, dressed, and ready to draw shortly. SQUEE! God is Able!

3:30 a.m. I spent the past two hours drawing so I say it's time for Neopets dailies! God Bless, Jesus Loves, Lives, Saves! Glory, Praise, and Thanks be to God on the Highest forever and ever in Jesus Name, Amen! God is Able!

I Actually Got Saved Today: A Christian Post

9:14 p.m. Since I was already up after sunrise again, I decided to go on a bike ride...even to stop by Church and see if there was a Sabbath service going on. Oh, and I sent out a big Prayer request to some Churches before then. I did change my mind at first, because I didn't want to carry a backpack for my water bottle, and then I decided to go without.

I made the long trek on my bike and my throat ached, quickly affected by the morning pollution of cars and trucks running by..but I made it to a Church, the nearest one, and saw a few cars in the driveway.

So, I praised God and asked for blessing...and went up to the Church, thinking I must be early. That is, until the doors were locked. So I knocked, and there was someone inside, but they couldn't hear me. She was a woman at the piano. And there were people singing along to it, out of view, Gospel music.

So I prayed to God and all I felt was that He wanted me to keep trying, even when I looked up and thought about just going further for another church.

So I stood outside, after knocking again, and touched the glass, Blessing and receiving in the Holy Spirit as I listened to the music. Finally, the woman came to the door.

I asked if I could come sit in on the service and she was like 'Sure! Come on in!'

The seats were empty and I quickly realized this was not a Sabbath service, but a Choir practice. I took my seat and listened anyway, staring at the Cross above their heads and focused on my Prayers. I was getting I hot, since it was a cool morning. I know I was getting moved...so much so that even though I didn't feel like I was crying, she brought me a couple paper towels. I wiped my face and continued my Prayers as they sang. It felt really nice in there, like a family.

A couple introduced themselves and asked if I needed Prayer. I told them yes. In the past, when I attended Church, and it came time to call the people forward to receive the Lord, I stayed in my seat, not wanting to give any attention to myself...and do the Salvation thing right from my pew.

This time, I let her know about my Schizophrenia. She asked me if I had received Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior. He is my Father, yes. I told her I did. She anointed me with Holy Oil, with a Cross on my forehead and held me and my forehead as the others joined hands.

She told me she was going to be speaking in tongues, which was fine, because I knew Saved people who received the Holy Spirit can speak in tongues. So she did, and Prayed in English as well. I tried to follow along but I still don't remember all of the words.

One that stuck out was for God to let me know that His answer is always 'Yes, not no.'

Meanwhile, I was stumbling backward and my lips couldn't stop quivering. I was in tears, already because this was the biggest issue of my entire life right now, and it ended with me Thanking the Lord with them and it came out in these prefect, loud whispers, like it was directly from my Spirit and it was beautiful.

She held me at the end and all I could think was, "Wow, this is real stuff.' I felt sort of 'scrubbed away' on the inside. Like a hollow feeling, but filled with like this orange-ish kind of light. It was an actually, physical and spiritual change.

I, and I've told them this, saw this happen a lot on CTN back in the days when I watched it but it was the first time I understood it. Why it could make someone wail, or they would fall backward, I nearly did but I knocked into a chair with my heel. I totally get the change.

They gave me some reading material and I biked home, Praising God. I also asked Salvation for April, Rob, and then received that I needed to request for DJ as well, so I did.

Another prayer that came to mind was that I wouldn't need medication but receive a Spiritual healing.

I was on my knees reading this 31 Days of Prayer book, then I read some of my Bible which actually opened up to a Scripture I REALLY needed since it dealt directly with what I was praying about that morning. Again, I Praised the Lord.

I slept the entire day until 8'something at night and got up for dinner. I ate and watched Mysteries at the Museum, cleaned a little, and wrote this because it's been on my mind.

I read in the Scriptures that to be saved, you needed to be Baptized in both the body and the Spirit. I had been baptized in the Spirit, but not by the body. Not even as a kid. So I think this was the day it finally happened and I can truly say I got Saved! Praise the Lord Jesus I love! I've been Anointed with the Holy Spirit and Saved.

If this post inspired you or you had a story to tell, please share in the comments below. God Bless, Jesus Loves, Lives, Saves! Praise, Thanks, Glory, and all things be to God on the Highest forever and ever in Jesus Name, Amen! God is Able! Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in Christ with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places. . .Ephesians 1:3

Friday, October 24, 2014

Deep Breath in...and Write.

3:15 p.m. So I'm finally awake after being up until morning again. First of all, I settled down with some Reese's Puff cereal and OJ and then got the coverage on JRM's Irish Post Legend award. Congrats, dude! You deserve it. Sincerely, your fan of over seven years.

It's a couple years old but I still like it...
I really, really, really want to get cracking on my novel. Editing Chapter Nine. I'm pleased the last two chapters are done. The thing is..I've been editing the first half of the book, that the other half is lacking on pages and plot. It'll be a challenge getting the book to be fully plot-driven and detailed all the way through. I just had a habit of editing the first 10 chapters and then going back to the beginning, and doing it again and again. Now...I can do this.

Any of you reading, send out a special prayer for this to get published, in Jesus Name, Amen! I totally need it to happen and get even a little income going to start helping out as a roomate. Pay off my debt. Give where needed. And overall just Praise the Lord in Jesus Name, Amen!

I want to sell even one copy of my book, I want to hold the first edition in my hands from a publisher. I want to find it when browsing in a bookstore, wishing I could autograph it but being unable to because it's not purchased. A long time down the road, I want to come across it in a donation bin somewhere, :) I want it to be that successful.

God Bless, Jesus Loves, Lives, Saves! All Glory, Praise, Thanks, Kingdom, Worship, Grace, Power, Might, Knowledge, and all thing be to God on the Highest forever and ever in Jesus Name, Amen! God is Able!

3:44 p.m. Now that I've wandered my Google communities, Thank the Lord Jesus above, I would like to start writing.  Oh give thanks to the Lord, for he is good, for his steadfast love endures forever!Psalm 107:1 Book Five 107:1 http://www.sandersweb.net/bible/verse.php

5:46 p.m. Finished editing Chapter Nine for now with a pleasant success, as usual, Praise the Lord. Now, it is definitely time for a bathroom break. I'm actually feeling sleepy, too... 

8:12 p.m. I just got back from a smooth grocery shopping trip with Rick and Rob. April was in bed with a headache but we got her some BC Powder and McDonalds for us. :D God bless, Jesus Loves, Lives, Saves! Halleuljah! God is Able!

Took this on the way to the store tonight. Beautiful!!

By the way, the cashier gave us free drinks. He handed us the tea cups and we were like 'We didn't order any drinks' and he's like 'Uh, yeah...you did.' And so...we got free drinks. Mostly it was about the fact that I had changed my mind about a double cheeseburger and got  two McDoubles instead and he had trouble getting anyone to pay attention when he needed help.

It reminded me all too much of the stresses of when I used to work there. I mean, I applied, but that moment brought me back to my times and I changed my mind. I will work elsewhere.

8:38 p.m. I just finished my food and I watched Mysteries at the Musuem..wondering if I've got the willpower to go as far as both adding to and editing Chapter Ten and then finally moving on to the second book once and for all.

10:20 p.m. Chapter Ten is edited with new plot stuff added...all of which will require future editing another time. Also, I've come up with new stuff for the story for much later in the book, which are things I hope to lead up to. Tis' turning out great. God Bless, Jesus Love, Lives, Saves! Praise, Thanks, and Glory, on High forever and ever in Jesus Name, Amen! God is Able!

10:43 p.m. Had a shower and got dressed. Been thinking of more plot stuff and if this book finishes, I hope to rewrite the second book, starring the daughter of the main characters who doesn't appear until the end of the first book. And if that one finishes, imagining a third one which goes back before Sauvignon and Tourniquet to a time where Sauvignon's parents fell in love.

11:04 p.m. Added more backstory and plot ideas to my notes. 

Thursday, October 23, 2014

Missing A Day.

The video above puts yesterday's artwork in better view. :)

7:40 p.m. Between 3 a.m. ish and somewhere before sunrise, I was watching Mysteries at the Museum. I also teased the cat...sorry. It likes going out in the mornings and I'd be on one side of the room, he on another, and if he heard the tiniest clink of the doorknob, he'd poke his head out in an adorable way and come running.

It was a cool morning out. Certainly not as foggy as yesterday. I walked around the yard with the cats a bit before heading inside. The laptops were unplugged as a small attempt to save electricity. And I went to bed, or tried to, just around sunrise.

I have a cat on my arm...
And I slept...and dreamt.

One dream about some evil version of my late Aunt made me wake up crying but I went back to bed afterwards..a few times.

I had one dream where I was in a room and swinging on a black chained rope, riding gigantic waves. I saw this dude and I didn't want him to know I had this windbreaker jacket full of candy, possibly because I wasn't supposed to have it, so I tossed it in the closet.

Then he came in and I demonstrated the rope thing, saying 'Use you iiimmaginatttion.' Saying that last word really quiet and slow.

I thought he was going to see how own thing but he wanted to see the wave thing. Then April wakes me up, asking if I was okay because I've been in my room all day. It was like 7 p.m. So I gave up this whole day to sleep. I think I needed it.

So I got up, had a homemade burrito and chatted with her...even showed her my illness blog which she said she'd want to read alone...but she would be interested in reading it.

I've been doing my daily rounds on social networks and seeing what was going on. Helen finally got to meet Jonathan Rhys Meyers at long last. I was eager for this day to come. She deserves it more than anyone, running his best fan site and all. :D She loves him to death.

That is all. God Bless, Jesus Loves, Lives, Saves! Glory, Praise, Thanks to God on High forever and ever in Jesus Name, Amen! God is Able!

10:55 p.m. April and I had a long talk about Schizophrenia, family, past, religion, and more. At one point I was bent over sobbing in her arms. All I want to say is I have some family enjoying their last years and I'd like to keep their memories of me as being normal, not a person who 'has something wrong with them.' I just want to be like everyone else.

Afterwards, we discussed financial planning and employment.

I also feel like drawing again, wanting to feel like the day I missed was worth something.

11:48 p.m. I visited my other blogs and decided to start another one, for a thirty day challenge in which I answer questions about being a single woman. I have not decided whether or not to add it to the Part Seize thing or not. http://thesinglewoman.net/2013/10/04/the-single-womans-30-day-blogging-challenge/

I'm also wanting to move form the laptop to the netbook where I have more images, including from my old Instagram if necessary! God Bless, Jesus Loves, Lives, Saves!

12:12 a.m. Yay! Some subscribed to my Dream Doctor blog where I post my novel! :D I'm happier over one than I probably would be a hundred. All the more reason to-----

My posts are typing slow, like I write and THEN I have to wait for the letters to show up. I probably have too many tabs open...Oi. It worked fin on the other laptop.

12:30 p.m. Not sure why it's going so slow...I closed more tabs.

12:24 p.m. I started a roommate debate over the Breaking Bad toys..sorry. I closed more tabs. It seems to be working a bit better now. For example, it used to look like this:

I really was functioning with this many tabs on the big laptop, and quite comfortably. XD I have loved pinned tabs ever since April showed me I could do them. :)

I took off Facebook, OkCupid, JRhysMeyers.com, Brest cancer's click to give, and the thirty day single woman challenge. 

One Blogger tab it for editing and viewing my blogs. The other is for previewing this main blog in another window.

That leaves Random Bible Verse, The Daily Neopets Dailies, Neopets, Google Plus Communities, AOL, and Instagram.

1:26 a.m. I just finished making the graphic for my new blog, the 30 day challenge of being a single girl. :D I have been thinking about a 365 challenge but I don't have the 24/7 365 video camera I need for the one I want to do. Could be interesting to try for the new year..hmm?

2:02 a.m. I could be drawing...but I know it would take quite a few hours to finish one like it has lately. Now that I'm showered, fresh, and dressed, I don't know if I can stay up that long.

5:02 a.m. Watched more Mysteries at the Museum and ate pasta..and made some hot chocolate that was just a bit..too hot..to drink.  Did my neopets dailies. That is all. God Bless, Jesus Loves, Lives, Saves! Glory, Praise, Thanks to God on High forever and ever in Jesus Name, Amen! God is Able! End of Updates.

P.S. The entire household has lost the sleep schedule.

Wednesday, October 22, 2014

The Day Has Just Begun

It was really foggy this morning.
6:15 a.m. YAY! Instead of staying UP until this hour, I went to be sometime around Midnight and feel well rested. April was gone from bed her computer was not yet on stand by..that was mysterious.

It wasn't until my daily online checkups that I remembered her pain and figured she left with Rick to do something about it. Skype confirmed that. I had a microwavable thing of macaroni, ginger ale, and tiny box of milk duds. The morning is just beginning.

6:37 a.m. Since I have so much of the day available, I thought I'd make the usual list. I'd like to go to the thrift shop but their half off sale isn't until tomorrow.

1. Draw something. [Done @ 2:52 a.m.]
2. Draw something OUTSIDE. [postponed]
3. Read for a half hour. [Done @ 9:34 p.m.]
4. Walk for a half hour. [Done @ 9:26 a.m.]
5. Make my bed.
6. Edit Chapter Seven of the Dream Doctor. [Done @ 8:20 a.m.]
7. Post Updated Version to DD Blog. [Done @ 8:20 a.m.]
8. Update Part Seize. [Done @ 7:25 a.m.]
9. Devotionals. [Done]
10. Do something for someone else. [Done @ 8:36 a.m.]
11. Watch something on Netflix. [Done @ 9:34 p.m.]
12. Tell my family I love them. Done @ 8:23 a.m.]
13. Promote my novel. [Done @ 8:34 a.m.]

That will have to do for now. I'm all caught up on Neo. It's been a good day. Feeling like updating Seize.

7:25 a.m. Finished updating Part Seize. I should probably let the cat out since the sun is up. God Bless, Jesus Loves, Lives, Saves! Glory, Thanks, Praise, and all things be to God on the Highest forever and ever in Jesus Name, Amen! God is Able!

7:29 a.m. Carlos is out, Hissy is in. I'd like to edit my novel.

8:20 a.m. Cat was fed. I finished editing my the Seventh Chapter of the Dream Doctor. Can't wait to edit the 8th, finally. Soon, though. May the Lord direct your hearts to the love of God and to the steadfastness of Christ. 2 Thessalonians 3:5 

8:34 a.m. Did some writing promotions. Thinking of going out and enjoying the morning...also rethinking my decision to wait for the thrift shop.

8:36 a.m. There's this blog I follow and I like it so much I told them they should write a book. They seemed touched...so I think I can cross that off my list, doing something nice for someone else.

The bridge.
9:26 a.m. I walked for nearly an hour, mostly daydreaming about the Dream Doctor to the point where I wished I was on a  film set watching it be filmed with JRM cast in it. Oi, Good times.

I loved the wind rise in my hair as the cars sped by, the fog, the cool air, the darkened trees...it was wonderfully peaceful, even despite a headache. Have to lie down. God Bless, Jesus Loves, Lives, Saves! He is Able!

9:34 a.m. Made some uploads to Instagram first. :P If not for my headache, I'd be decorating the post with them BUT alas...there is a headache..so it must wait. I need Excedrine.

9:40 a.m. The procrastinator web surfs...

9:49 a.m. Well, I found the empty Excedrine bottle in the trash. I think April also took one of the two dollars she gave me out of my room, I'm assuming. Don't know why. Not a big deal, though. I got a dollar in change off the coffee table.

Despite a headache I really want to go out shopping today....like seriously. I couldn't lay for a few minutes, I tried. lol. God Bless, Jesus Love, Live, Save! He is Able! God be with me today and always in Jesus Name, Amen!

10:05 a.m. And I lost my backpack for a good while...hunted it down until I found it actually 'HIDDEN' from almost complete view under my desk. Oi. I'm outtie to the thrift shop.

12:35 p.m. 2 and a half hours later. I just got back and have so much more to tell but I'm both sweaty and exhausted. God Bless, Jesus Love, Lives, Saves~!

6:30 p.m. After having a shower, I went to bed around 2 p.m. It was difficult, trying to sleep, but I persisted and thus was out for the next four hours. I woke up to severely intrusive thoughts which I'll get into on my Illness blog.

Not only that, my urinary tract closed up and almost refused completely to let me pass urine, so using the bathroom took a long time.

Earlier today, after getting to the thrift shop, I was really, really feeling sick...like nauceous. This tends to happen when I try a lot of exercise while having a headache, which I did. There was one moment where I went into the bathroom asking God to let me throw up, pleading into the toilet seat...so I'll feel better. Then a voice said, 'Instead be healed' and I praised the Lord. I was fine for the rest of the day until I got home.

I got more books while I was there...basically the series on Angel encounters as I've grown fascinated with them. A barbie book for Aaliyah and a Josie and the Pussycats novel. :) I don't have that awesome movie so it's the next best thing.

Donny stopped by the moment I got home. He still comes by to sit on the porch and talk and I know it's obvious that I exclude myself for every different reason. He's not a bad guy. Yes, it's really hard to understand him when he speaks. No, you can't have subtitles, much as it would help. But he's a genuinely nice guy. I was told the neighborhood has turned him away so that's why Rob and April welcome him at every time, even if it pulls them out of bed. Bless them. He never says anything about it though, he's so polite.

Signature. Woot!
So today I've had both trouble and God's glory mixed in. Kind of an 'on and off thing.'

I had a dream April met John Stamos (What? I never dream of that guy) and later in the dream, I see a video where she met Jonathan Rhys Meyers, who was laying on the grass covered median on a highway as they greet eachother.

He's his usual self, smiles and gets up and shakes her hand. I screamed about it. Like 'WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME YOU MET JONATHAN RHYS MEYERS!!!" And when I showed her the video, because she had no clue who I was talking about, she was just like 'Oh.'

In another part of the dream, he was doing a very intense stage performace and as it ended with a bang, he's like tilted halfway over backwards, eyes tight shut, with tears streaming down his face.

Oh, and I walked around a shop invisible.

Barbie book for Aaliyah, Josie and the Pussycats, A book about
old films, and the rest are stories of Angel encounters. :D
April was in great spirits when she and Rock got back around two. When I got up, she had barracaded herself in the room with the door locked, which is rare, and put up cleaning rules around the house. [Also worrisome because taking these things upon herself frustrates her both deeply, and for me, uncomfortably.]

I don't know how the dentist thing went. All I know is she was int he waiting room for two hours but I missed the rest of her story in favor of going to bed. Need to jump on my illness diaries now. God Bless, Jesus Loves, Lives, Saves! Halleuljah! God is Able!

7:00 p.m. Took some new photos. waiting on Okcupid to update my feed so I can right click to save. Meanwhile, I'm talkingon OkCupid. I like grammar in OkCupid suitors. XD

7:26 p.m. I added the entry to my Illness Diaries. :) Feeling better. Still trying to find 'The One.' I like a fun guy to be sure. I am drawn to upbeat personalities. :D P.S. I've had 'We've Only Just Begun' from the Osmond siblings in my head. I heard it at Publix on Friday and it reminded me of 1408.

This guy was looking at me while I stopped on my bike to
get a drink of water. lol.
7:32 p.m. Also, April didn't take a dollar off of my dresser. Not sure where it could have gone though. Still talking on OkCupid and hoping to take an internet break soon to read. April and Rob are making burgers which is like 'YUM!!' God Bless, Thanks, Glory, Jesus Loves, Lives, Saves Home nuggets!

7:36 p.m. I have a cat who suddenly wanted to sit on my stomach as I'm laying on the couch.

7:40 p.m. I supposed I'm done with my internet stuff. It's reading time! :D P.S. My books are over piled on my single shelf. I'll have to make proper room at some point. Hmm?

9:34 p.m. April's mood livened up over the night. She told me about her dentist trip and all but I'd rather not go into much detail about it.

Dinner was delicious. I watched Supernatural as I ate, as usual. Then continued my reading. :D I pray in Jesus Name April will feel better tonight, and tomorrow, through what is going on...even for a miraculous healing in body and spirit! Amen!

9:45 p.m. I surfed the web. Drawing something would be ideal....but what

2:52 a.m. I spent the past four and a half hours absorbed in a new drawing.

3:31 a.m. Did my neopets dailies and I was hungry, so I made fettucini alfredo. God Bless, Jesus Loves, Lives, Saves! Thanks, Praise, Glory, and end of Updates! God is Able!!

Tuesday, October 21, 2014

The Sun, Health Stuff, OkCupid, and More.

This picture is from yesterday, not today.
4:19 p.m. Here's how it went down. I took care of Part Seize, played online and watched Mysteries at the Museum with snack and hot cocoa until morning. I waited up to catch a picture of the sunrise. The sun came up, certainly, but I didn't see.

I did, however, enjoy an early morning walk. The fog loomed over the planes beneath a dark blue sky. The winds were light and breezy. The sounds of cars and semis speeding past me on the asphalt filled my ears. It was great!!

Having done that, I went to bed shortly thereafter and stayed in bed. I woke up to a couple of great OKCupid messages. One dude gave me a long description of himself (messages like that stand out from the others) and I was very interested...still am.

It seems to happen that by the end of the first week after chatting up an awesome guy, the shoe drops, and there comes a deal-breaker for me..then it kinda flounders. I'm hoping to break that at some point because then I'll get very, very excited. Anyway, that's how it's been going.

This picture is also from yesterday.
The past few days I've had a headache in the back side of my head and I don't know why. I'm guessing it's somehow either dehydration or a food thing but I don't know. I've thrown my health for a loop this past month between exercise, food, and sleep.

I'm being more relaxed since the goals I could do today were done yesterday, happily. Although I would like to edit DD (my novel for those who don't know, short for The Dream Doctor) at some point. :D It's going well.

P.S. April gave me a couple bucks to go thrift shopping on Thursday with. Half off sale. The shops around here...you can do a LOT with that. A LOT. It's also a good time to lay off stuff that has to stop sitting around.

God Bless, Jesus Loves, Lives, Saves! Hallelujah! Praise, Thanks, and Glory to Him on the Highest forever and ever in Jesus Name, Amen! God is Able! But do not overlook this one fact, beloved, that with the Lord one day is as a thousand years, and a thousand years as one day2 Peter 3:8

not literal (if you know God is truth, then why would He not be literal and teach things that are not to be taken as real) this includes Jesus' stories to His disciples in the Gospels. Those stories he told ACTUALLY happened!! as well as being a lesson.
6 p.m. sun in Florida. THIS is from today.

4:53 p.m. Well, that shoe dropped pretty quick. I kinda have to resist when people openly take Scripture and add their own meaning to it so they can have their way. If I'm guilty of it at times, I'm sorry. I absolutely cannot sit well on misconstrewed 'anything' from people about the Bible in Christianity. The ones who act as if every word is

Because they believe so, they leave it open to their open interpretation, and therefore open for their own desires, even contrary to Scripture. Again. I don't want to be a hypocrite so, sorry, genuinely, If I do this too. I just don't want it from a potential partner either.

Also,  tired of the 'I'm a guy so of course, naturally, I should like/want sex' line, when it comes to my abstinence, from men. Give me a break! Do you think that's what God wants you thinking about yourself? -_-

Carlos enjoying the first taste of morning freedom. He's not
allowed out at night.
Is it so impossible not to swear, either? To act like an upstanding gentleman? I'm not asking for anything I'm not already doing myself. Just one. God. One. No anger, no profanity, no pre-marital sex, forgiveness, and pacifism. JUST one!! In Jesus Name, Amen! No exceptions on it.
Yeah, tears are coming from my eyes. I mean that from my heart. Oi. I only want to date one more man for my whole life, one, and then marry him, for life.

I don't want to go through a dozen guys who are half or less of the things I need filled with a relationship. I won't do it to cure loneliness because that's both flawed and empty, too. Am I asking for the moon and the stars here?

I'm just strange, I guess. Narrowing down a billion possible men to one right one for me and only wanting that right one....very strange.

5:53 p.m. I've spent the past hour networking and promoting. Looking at the blogs of others and even followed a couple today. :) God Bless, Jesus Loves, Lives, Saves. Thank, Praise, Glory on high Forever Amen! God is Able!

Typical setup. Art inspiration/reference folder, sharpener, eraser,
graphite pencils, and a thick sketchbook with the wonderful
Irish actor Jonathan Rhys Meyers on the cover. Images belong to
W Magazine. No copyright infringement intended.
6:09 p.m. Decided to go out and take yet another wonderful picture of the sun going down. I can't help how wonderful God made something like this in the sky. I sat outside a few minutes...Hissy kitty was actually nice to me, more unafraid than usual.

6:29 p.m. I'm getting my art stuff ready. ^^ Lovely evening for a new drawing.

6:33 p.m. On second thought, I'm kinda hungry....so I'm heating up chicken, a hot dog, and mac with shredded cheese. Yum!

6:53 p.m. Finished my food, Paused Supernatural, the episode of 'The French Mistake' and went outside with the cats for a little bit. I really seen to be delaying the drawing thing, don't I? P.S. SPN is great to have on while you draw. I've seen it so many times that I can stand to not pay attention. :)

12:10 a.m. I spent four of the past 5 hours plus on a new drawing which came out fabulous. :D And another hour was spent on the newest episode of Supernatural, in the middle of a marathon of Season six..it is..I think. Anyway, End of Updates. I'm beat. God Bless, Thanks, Glory, Jesus Loves, Lives, Saves Forever Amen! P.S. Have a bit of a tummy ache. :(

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