A Daily Diary: 2014


Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Happy New Year!

3:03 p.m. On summary of my day and updating more, God Willing, tomorrow.

  • Updated Seize.
  • No walk ins after all to the Doctor. Need to make an appointment.
  • Made two new poems.
  • Napped.
  • Enjoying a bonfire.
  • Organized photos and getting them updated to my computer.
  • Dad postponed, again. Ah well...until Saturday, we'll see.
  • Hoping to make chicken tonight.
Enjoying my New Years with Friends!!! 

Except the bonfire burned my eyes and I had to come inside.

My resolution: Spread the Gospel of Jesus Christ. Get on disability or stop being mentally ill.  To not have to take these meds anymore which have been attempting to slow down my life these past couple weeks.

God Bless, Jesus Loves, Lives, Saves! All Glory, Praise. Thanks, and all things be to God on the highest forever and ever in Jesus Name, Amen! God is Able!

Monday, December 29, 2014

Catching Up

2:33 a.m. Yesterday, I spent the day working on my laundry and hanging out with the neighbors. I gave away about half of my hand sewn on pillows. finally, the restaurant. I also wrote some poems.
I started a new dress just for fun. I got some sleep. I really miss working on my journal.
It was nice taking a day off from writing my entry, though.

3:07 p.m. I would pay money to not do 15 entries on a slow computer. I did complete one though.

3:57 a.m. I finally got the video of Harmony I wanted on Instagram. Also, I decided my book must wait.

7:21 a.m. just had a dream about dinner with the Kardashians and the Duggars. More soon.

9:39 a.m. I slept and cared for the cats...had a banana. I worked on 2 new drawings, one of them a watercolor and then got dressed and had a shower.
I was gonna go out but it was raining.

11:55 a.m. I attempted to sleep but my bladder got the best of me. So I got up and sewed pockets onto my camouflage purse. I thought about giving it to Dad as a late Christmas present but it looks too much like a purse. He'll enjoy the shaving set though.
Still wet out.

12:42 p.m. Had pizza and chatted up Donny.

2:11 p.m. Dad might be coming by on New Years and called to let me know. Still trying to figure out what's going on with my medical assistance application. I'm on hold. :/

2:54 p.m. Application denied. Trying Florida Health Services next with April and Rob. Stay tuned.....
Feeling pretty beat.
My wheezing nostrils sound like seagulls on the beach lol, almost relaxing to listen to. :P

3:47 p.m. Napped.

3:50 p.m. I can work on Seize soon! Yay!!!!

6:37 p.m. I can fall over. 40 pages done.

EDIT: Had the worst time getting to sleep in the night. Didn't get it until midnight hours...

Sunday, December 28, 2014

Sewing and Dreams.

6:23 a.m. I had a dream Kenan and Kel reunited. Also, that I was going on a plane ride to Chicago as michelle pfieffer in a business suit...more soon when a cat is not on my chest.

6:25 a.m. A cat is not on my chest, anyway. She jumps the space between the door and the plane and lands straight in her seat with relief, a huge gap. Twas odd.

I got up and continued working on my camoflage handbag (yes, that's what it is. The handles need hems and I need to add pockets, preferably a lot of them if I'm going to make heavy use of it.

I also updated yesterday's entry with written notes (dictated) so that's off my chest. I also had a dream I went back to school, didn't pay attention, and had to take a strange quiz afterword filled with long words I never heard of.

Anyway, it's morning and I'm up. Cat is next to me, lol.

9:22 a.m. I was woken up from a long sleep, by Donny looking for cigarettes. I had none to give, and after trying to go back to sleep failed, I got up and Praised the Lord. Then, I worked on my handbag, which is coming along okay. 

In my dream I went thrift shopping with Shelby and she was child-like but an adult at the same time, looking for Christmas gifts at one point and at another I had to teach her how to buy things as if I were doing it for Aaliyah.

Another part of the dream I asked her if it wsa too childish to jump on a trampoline in the house...and seriously wanted to know...because we were grown (yet she looked like her child self) and wanted to do it.

10:07 a.m. I'M BORED!! Happy Sabby. Anyway, I meandered a lot and finally drew something outside. :D I untangled headphone cords earlier to find the best ones and I've been listening ever since. I think I sewed some more. Read some a couple pages of a Charles Heston book....anything brief enough not to be interrupted by the sting of Lackadaisy which pounces like a wild animal on its meal, to me. But, I'm bored.

I've also been eating less because  I can't handle big, or even standard, portions anymore without losing an appetite and the little I eat, I make myself eat. :( Not great times...

10:39 a.m. I made mozzerella sticks, watched Forrest Gump, and Donny came by. He was unhappy about someone but hard to understand. He said he'd be back later. I feel bad for him. He had a couple roaches crawling on his shirt and his dirty clothes...moreso didn't seem to mind it much. Pray for him in Jesus Name, Amen! Blessings needed!!

2:30 p.m. I'm awake!! Yay.

3:26 p.m. I was sewing earlier. Rob made strawberry yogurt smoothies! Yum!

3:42 p.m. Took my meds which are already kicking in. I sewed a BIT more....'Biltmore' that word's been in my head lately. Anyway, and played a little Instagram and meds are making me want to lie down again and this..ladies and gentleman..is why I try and get so much done in the morning because by the afternoon and evening, I've hit the doldrums officially because of medication. God Bless, Jesus Loves, Lives, Saves! All Glory, Praise, Thanks, and all things be to God on the Highest forever and ever in Jesus Name, Amen! God is Able!

P.S. Before being on meds, I never understood how its physical effects AFFECT your decisions on whether or not to do something you enjoy, or just to be normal. I totally get it now. -_-

4:42 p.m. Tried to sleep, and when that didn't work, I went outside barefoot and enjoyed nature. Then. I wrote a couple poems.

5:36 p.m. I sewed some more and ate. Right now, I'm catching the sun going down....or trying to.

5:44 p.m. Caught it.

5:58 p.m. Carlo is walking funny. I'm tired.

8:05 p.m. I tried to sleep but I wound up making quesadillas, watching Netflix, then SPN. My teeth are brushed and I'm attempting sleep again.

8:55 p.m. Tried to sleep but wound up doing artwork. Try again?

9:25 p.m. I slept and chatted with Rob about meds.

EDIT: I was up all night, did a little OkCupid, and went to bed.

Saturday, December 27, 2014

Hello Beautiful

8:15 a.m. That was the most beautiful sleep I've had in two weeks, or more, and I love Jesus. I feel beautiful, soft, and calm this morning. April gave me the green light to work on Part Seize, or what I can of it, while they grocery shop which is wonderful for me. I'm looking forward to that today.

I'm hoping that today, in prayer, I can actually reach my goals without that Lackadaisy, as I like to call it, sinking in. That moment when you get excited to do something up until the second you do it....then you sink, as if into a puddle, inside and out. Then you have to stop what you wanted to do if you want the feeling to go away, which I often do unless....I'm really determined and ride it out.

The tongue pauses, the eyelids sink, a feeling rises in my stomach and near the nape of my neck. My knees weaken. I frown. It's all these physical attributes that occur once I try something and then I have to step away to make the feeling go away.

I'm nervous about the Medical assistance thing. Not even sure what it is. I just know my phone is dead and unless they call in January, there isn't going to be an interview. -_- I wasn't thinking about using a different number at the time...or if I did, I didn't bother. So there's that.

Dad has some Christmas money for me at the end of the month which I hope to use on buying some more photos from Wal Mart :D I don't know what else yet because all twenty bucks isn't going towards that. Hopefully, a poetry book but we'll have to see, right?

I'm spending New Years here instead of at Mom's this year, which means missing Dick Clarks New Year's Rocking Eve, for once. Pity that. But still, there's no place like home, for sure. God, I missed my bed and I've certainly made my use of it in a day.

Had a dream that I broke it to Grandpa that DJ brought me home instead of him and he wasn't very happy...because at first he wasn't listening and said to wait and we'd be ready and when he realized, he complained to Mom, who gave the gas money, that there was no point to going out there. Psycological dreammms, man.

I dreamt of Jonny. He presented some art he did and I took pictures, then I was kidnapped because someone wanted to see them, and what else I might have about him, on my flash drive. They did, briefly, and I don't quite recall what happened after but it was weird.

I had another dream about him recently but I don't recall. I didn't think it was worth writing at the time. Right now my brain is seeking, not finding, like automatically.

I'm in a good mood and awfully chatty on my blog this morning. Again, its a good start. This is the catchup and the expectation of what, God Willing only, is to come.

I also wanted to work on Chapter Eighteen again because it needs to have a pace adjustment and be a lot less boring. Some things also, just plainly, need cutting.

8:30 a.m. I remembered having another dream about Jen, something involving our childhood where she used to take my diaries and run off with them. This has been fifteen minutes of catching up. Goodbye. God Bless, Jesus Loves, Lives, Saves! All Glory, Praise, Thanks, and all things be to God on the Highest forever and ever in Jesus Name, Amen! God is Able!

8:45 a.m. Did some neopets dailies. I'm wondering what kind of a day it is outside.

9:02 a.m. I just wrote a poem about the morning, after being inspired from stepping outside. Brilliant. This morning is off to a good start, I'm tellin' ya.

9:28 a.m. I had a bite to eat, then went outside and took some selfies and stock photos..which I hope to use one day given the chance, you know?

10:21 a.m. I fought the Lackadaisy and won. Just did a new drawing. I've been writing the symptoms of what I've been going through down and it's really helped me.

1:28 p.m. Today, I'm making a purse and I just got back from a nature walk/bike ride. God Bless, Jesus Loves, Lives, Saves! P.S. I've already had my medication today.

2:13 p.m. Sewed some more, had some hot dogs, and decided not to work on Sezie today due to possible effects medication will have on me ANYWAY.

4:28 p.m. Back from grocery shopping and restless/drowsy at the same time. Glad I made the decision I made..kinda. I should have stayed home to sleep.

5:10 p.m. I had a banana, mozzerella sticks, and munchies. I also resumed sewing. I'm good. P.S. I have a light bulb, yay!!! I can work nights.

8:28 p.m. I had a dream about Jonathan Rhys Meyers. He was wearing that silvery suit and showing some blonde woman into his apartment and conversating.

I need to update my Illness diaries more often and I need a shower.

9:16 p.m. Had cheese, chips, and watched Forrest Gump, some of it.

11:23 p.m. I resumed sewing -falls over- and had some Devotionals.

Friday, December 26, 2014

About Late Last Night and more...

4:18 a.m. I had a long night...for hours . Bad bladder attack. I was frustrated, I cried. The house was bustling, Aaliyah was fidgety with plastic and I couldn't sleep a wink. I went to bed early and fell asleep in the midnight hours. P.S. Ate a Buckeye. Yum. Anywho, I slept.

When I woke, like a fourth Christmas, I got up early and gathered/inspected my stuff. Good thing I did.
So it's early and Im all set to go. Grandpa tends to get up early. There's still a fire going in the backyard with no one attending it. Another morning of the baby wailing, poor dear.

4:25 a.m. I didn't expect Joe to be outside when I went to bring the dog in but there he was. At least he coaxed him inside.

4:32 a.m. Playing on Instagram and waiting to go home. With all my heart, I can't wait. Nine days actually feels like a lot longer. Lot. Lot. I wished for it too much I suppose.
When Grandpa wakes for his coffee, he may or may not ask what time I wanted to go. If he does, Im not sure what to tell him.

"Now"....though he would have just woken up. I couldn't say that. "Whenever he's ready" is a good answer and I'd let him know I was already all packed up and ready to go when he was.

4:48 a.m. I have thumbs. Anyways. I just finished playing with Instagram. This is more and more like a countdown to going home.

5:04 a.m. Still played on instagram. Wanted to see if Mom was up and had gas money...wasn't sure if that was required for me to go home today or not....

5:13 a.m. I caught Mom at the last minute and got the gas money to give Grandpa. :D Told her I loved and missed her too. :) Good things....

5:34  @+m I tried meandering and sleeping, as well as dressing warm...but Im still awake and ever waiting to arrive home..
Im a bit too excited about it.

5:59 a.m. I just filled up on leftovers for breakfast. Im watching Phineas and Fern this morning....because it was already on.

6:01 a.m. Now Doc McStuffins lol

6:15 a.m. Noted..I tried to sleep but I may be too cold or too bored.

7:15 a.m. Despite a bad bladder, I've tried to sleep for the past hour. Grandpa is usually up by now but Im not about to bother him if he's not , lol.

7:31 a.m. I got up and caught the sunrise, took photos of that and some textures.

9:52 a.m. At 8 a.m. I asked DJ to give me a ride, so he did. We got home about a half hour later. I unloaded my stuff, updated my photo albums, gave April some makeup and wondered what fun thing to do next. I wish I could work on my journal but that would be difficult at the moment, considering what the big laptop did last time and that April has the computer now. I'M SO HAPPY TO BE HOME AGAIN!!!!!!!!!! Now what?

10:34 a.m. Applied for Medicaid assistance and started my negatives project. :) Would like to finish later.

11:18 a.m. Finally did my makeup and took photos. Negatives did not scan well. I'll have to photograph them.

11:34 p.m. I had casserole leftovers and a fiber one bar. Don't feel like being on the computer much.

11:45 a.m. I did my neopets dailies.

12:22 p.m. I tried making a poetry book early but I was too tired. I just had a nice nature walk, though. Even though lackadaisical in some areas, I prosper in others. Time for meds.

4:37 p.m. That was one long nap.

5:28 p.m. made Mac and fries for dinner. Carlo is somewhere outside and I couldn't find him.

6:00 p.m. Cat is in. I'm still sleepy and I was working on my negatives project.

6:21 p.m. I am going to head to bed again, soon. Groceries are tomorrow, instead, and the list is already done. My photos originally in this post were deleted, unfortunately, so this entry is photo-less for the moment. I just had a twix bar and brushed my teeth...and surprisingly unopposed to writing on the computer now.

6:30 p.m. Mostly meandering.

7:00 p.m. Set up Wal-Mart photos to order at another time. :D I really like having physical copies of my favorite photos now. Digital age. :P

7:16 p.m. I just used a plastic bust from a barbie box Aaliyah has as a candy mold to make a beautiful dressmaker form chocolate bar. Freezing it a long while until its ready.

7:32 p.m. Can't wait for a good night's sleep in my own, big, soft bed. Jesus loves me. Died, Risen, Saves! Good night, God Bless, He is able to do above all we ask or think.

11:11 p.m. My mind is blown that I was asleep for nearly four hours! My chocolate is done! I had an ice cream by the way and actually heading back to bed.

11:17 p.m. Well, look. I added pics after all.

11:53 p.m. I've already bored myself. Tried my book but for some reason, it's not up to date on my flash drive the way it should be so...I have to wait another day to get it going again, Part Seize. Preferably tomorrow while everyone is grocery shopping as I don't know if April would give me such a window to do it in the meantime...

Thursday, December 25, 2014

I Smell Ham. Christmas Is Full of Surprises.

6:30 a.m. I woke up to the smell of ham and rushed to do the Neopets Advent Calender. :D And dailies, no biggie. Then belatedly updated last night's entry and edited my poem. Not bad for a morning start.

6:38 a.m. Updated yesterday's entry with pictures. I'm another day closer to Heaven and one day closer, God Willing, to going home.

6:48 a.m. Asleep on Christmas morning. Last night she was confused. She asked if Santa was coming and bringing more presents or something because she saw her presents already under the tree. Her Mom is wrapping a few extra ones this morning so I think she has an answer. God Bless, Jesus Birth, Loves, Lives, Saved! Now Happy Christmas to all!

7:12 a.m. Mema got me an awesome 'Christmas Sweater' and I'm rocking it this morning.

7:25 a.m. I changed from my pajamas to jeans and I've been sorting through my clothes. I want to wear my
beanie to match my sweater...my beanie has been chemically treated for lice but my head does not like it. It starts to phantom itch, like a head hurty kind of itch, just imagining 'what if' I left one off of there and it jumped in my head. So I'm washing it...should do the trick...and washing it among other things.

The sun has already risen and it will be a cool, and from what I hear, a rainy day. All Glory, Praise, Thanks, and all things be to God on the Highest forever and ever in Jesus Name, Amen! God is able! God Bless, Jesus Born and Died, Rose and Saved! He does above all we ask or think.

I already texted Dad to ask if he was coming and let him know I got a gift and food for him when, and if, 
he's able to make it out here to Mom's house. I also texted April and Rob to wish them a Merry Christmas.

7:42 p.m. I got socks and mittens on earlier, bundled up, and took Stock shots of nature..morning winter nature...and a couple selfies. Aaliyah woke up, wanting to open gifts but we don't do that until everyone is awake around here.

7:44 a.m. ANNNDDD...She's asleep again. lol.

8:00 a.m. Wrote a couple new poems. Happy.

An old online friend who I fell out with, who I knew for years and lost touch with, though not for a lack of
trying,  deleted me from
Instagram. Not a big deal. Just can't have some voice in my head all day wanting me to worry about nothing so I wrote the poems to make me feel better...I just had to let it out.

I have thirty so far. I told myself I'd only let there be a poetry book at a minimum of fifty poems and I have tax return money coming in the coming months. I hope to remember Sierra Leone, an impoverished nation, at that time. AND I want to buy my journal if its ready at that time, and the poetry book, if its ready at that time. Tats all I know.

I hear Grandpa...kinda sounds like he's talking to somebody so maybe people are waking up. I'm kinda like a big kid so I'm ever excited for today. God Bless, Jesus Loves, Lives, Saves!

Awesome gifts from an awesome family.
8:21 a.m. Spending time with Mom. Dad hasn't gotten back to me yet.

8:34 a.m. Been watching the Chrisley's and Mom, Joe, Grandpa, and Jen are chatty.

8:41 a.m. Aaliyah is awake but like half the household is still sleeping, lol.

9:01 a.m. Meandered mostly but I got to teach Aaliyah how to do a crossword puzzle, just in the similar way I learned when I was her age. She needed a little extra help though with the big words.

10:40 a.m. We got presents out of the way and then everyone departed to their places. I got bath and makeup gifts which was really awesome. Aaliyah LOVES the Lamilly doll which made my heart smile. Hope to post more pictures later, I took quite a bit, but not right now.

10:59 a.m. Arranged for a ride home tomorrow from Grandpa. :D HOME! It's like a fourth Christmas. The one before I left, Christmas Eve, today, and tomorrow.

11:20 a.m. I have cramps and starting to feel the effects of waking up too early.

11:45 a.m. Had a nap and I just went through my Christmas photos...of which I'm very happy with. :) Normal.

12:26 p.m. Meandered..mostly. Just cleaned up and I'm getting my laundry done, too.

12:55 p.m. Dad sends apologies for not coming. Still a happy time.Talking to mema now.

1:14 p.m. I gotta say the Maybelline FIT Foundation was a PERFECT shade, as advertised, but I've yet to try the Maybelline Age Rewind The Lifter firmer and foundation. I'm only 26 but I heard its good stuff. I have to learn to use it properly. I got plenty of eyeliner, too and some eye shadow. I'm not putting makeup on my face today, by the way. I didn't bring my Dollar Store makeup remover lol.

About earlier, I don't mind that Dad is not arriving. He said he'll try to see me, and pick up his gift, on the 31st. He has to cook and see people and by the time that's done, it'll be too late because he has to work.

I'm looking forward to Christmas dinner, by the way.

1:31 p.m. Age rewind is just a tad too dark for me...maybe it's what April was looking for.

1:36 p.m. Trying to Skype her and see if it's something she was looking for. If not, I'll try it out for real..another time..when I have ALL my makeup including my favorite mascara..I have all the eye stuff except a mascara lol.

1:55 p.m. Clarrissa came by and loved her gifts! I'm SO HAPPY! :D

2:03 p.m. Still handling my laundry.

2:43 p.m. I WAS napping, and laundry got handled, then Mom and Joe started fighting and someone is blaring car music outside...horrible music. So I put headphones on...which I don't plan on sleeping with. Oi.

2:47 p.m. At least things quieted down now. -_-

3:04 p.m. Just tried Maybelline Age Rewind The Lifter firmer and foundation on my face and I have to say, the tone makes my face a bit paler than my original complexion and it makes my eyes water. Would recommend if it were my exact shade (Here I thought it was too dark after a wrist test, now it may be too light) but may not due to slight eye irritation...though tolerable. No less thankful to Jen for it, though. :D

I will say this: It makes my skin feeler smoother than a baby. lol.

3:14 p.m. Wrote some reviews. lol.Mom and Joe left, feeling better.

3:39 p.m. Had some Doritos.Mom and Joe are home and Christmas dinner should be ready soon enough.

4:03 p.m I had a nap and I've been helping out with Christmas dinner.

4:06 p.m. Checked my email. But do I really need to know in the future that I checked my email just now, lol? Is there a relevance to that?

4:19 p.m. Going with Mom to see Jack and Joan for the first time in over a year. WOW!

4:46 p.m. We just got home from a pleasant time of catching up with Joan. Got coke, a Kit Kat, and Elvis hot chocolate, lol. Totally unexpected.
4:56 p.m. I like to take very brief intervals of naps like I just did right now...many intervals. Like a power nap but all spread out, ya know? God Bless, Jesus Loves, Lives, Saves! Edited this entry a little because I have a habit of putting p.m. sometimes when the time is actually still the morning, lol.

5:07 p.m. I read half of Chapter Eighteen, which still needs editing after all because I got bored pretty quick and then pace is too jumpy.

5:39 p.m. More meandering and another quick nap behind me.

6:30 p.m. More napping and meandering, then I had a quiet dinner. A few guests have not yet  arrived but we're eating up anyway. ;) Me? I'm brushing my teeth.

6:36 p.m. Turning off here. More tomorrow. Bye. End of Updates.

Wednesday, December 24, 2014

Odd Dreams and Confessions on Christmas Eve.

11:54 p.m. I haven't slept well lately for the past few days. I lie awake, writing poetry. I watched Snow Day. It's still the 23Rd for a few more minutes.

I will be up for a long time. The poems tend to describe how I feel which is why I'm not exactly writing it here. That would feel redundant.

6:03 a.m. Merry Christmas!! I let April know that I was talking to Caleb again, thanks to a weird dream I had where I went to visit him. Later in the dream, I met Jonny, too, while I was trying to save my Instagram photos...except it was in one long collage that needed to be cropped. They chatted as I worked away..with pictures turning into movie clips of dancers and whatnot. JRM said something about children and I thought of him and Mara, lol.

In another dream, I dreamt of a movie which I thought was from 2009 about Hayden Pattierre's work at a radio station and waking up to hair and makeup and signing forms, etc. Then it became a movie about the
late Natalie Holloway and there was a funeral procession through a cemetary. Very sad.

I wrote the dream down though.

This morning, I saved my Instagram photos and made the confession, like I said. April is fine with me talking to Caleb as long as I'm not pursuing something romantic, which I'm not, nor is he.

I stayed up all night, until sometime well past midnight into 1 a.m. writing poetry and watching a prison show. I got a list of things to do today.

1. Add photos to the last entry.
2. Write more poetry.
3. Edit poems I already have.
And more to come later...

God Bless, Jesus Loves, Lives, Saves! All Glory, Praise, Thanks, and all things be to God on the Highest
forever and ever in Jesus Name, Amen! God is Able! Need to take a break from uploading to Instagram, like seriously.

6:27 a.m. This  already seems like an accomplished morning. P.S. This entry is laced in the beginning with poems I wrote about not being able to sleep.

6:29 a.m. That's it..I also did my Advent Calender and my neopets story was rejected because it was considered too short. Oh well. Oi.

6:35 a.m. Took care of SOME Neopets dailies. I have an itchy head which is unfortunate. Vinegar time.

6:56 a.m. When it comes to moods, I have totally flipped a switch and did things I normally would be too uninterested in doing. I just sorted through a TON on Instagram likes and reset them, practically. Oi.

The final message for myself last night.
I still have the vinegar in my hair and I'm waiting on it to work. I can't tell anymore between a dry and dirty scalp or plain head lice. So, I'm being on the safe side.`

7:17 a.m. Finished with that. Once again, I've completed my goals in a short amount of time. I'm very tempted to work on the final chapter of The Doctor, and perhaps delete the blog before sending it to a publisher somewhere, but that's further in the future.

Right now I'm nervous. It's the closing chapter, the rejoicing after the boss battle...for a moment anyway. Of course, I know tragedy strikes in the final chapter but it was one that made sense...and wasn't for no good reason. Yes, I mean a death to a beloved character.

7:29 a.m. I'm shutting down the computer for now but I will say the chapter is off to a nice start. Needed a heavy amount of re-writing, sure, but its fine. The whole story changed for the better.

12:18 p.m. I went Christmas shopping with Mom at Wal-Mart, and the Dollar store, and came home and helped with wrapping gifts. I also babysat and made Mom and omelette. After that, I mostly meandered.

We are planning on going back today to get Dad a gift though. I just had to hunt down my shoes...

2:35 p.m. In the past two and a half hours, I wrapped gifts and relaxed.  Mom gave me a gift for Dad instead of going shopping and she left to get other stuff. Harmony went down for a nap. My meds made me drowsy and still do. I helped clean the kitchen a little but I was like a zombie...I thought of eating ramen, which I later did while watching Forrest Gump and being on Instagram a bit. Rested a bit more and I'm still drowsy.

2:30 p.m. - 4 p.m. I was babysitting but I am also kind of in a zombie mode and need sleep.

4:31 p.m. They came HOME!!! And they have Christmas dinner for tomorrow.

8:35 p.m. I slept until around 8 p.m. and woke up to see McDonalds..not for me. So I asked for some but Jen was already on the way home. I was told to make a sandwich instead. XD

8:54 p.m. I rested, I'm cold, and writing poetry.

9:17 p.m. I had my sandwich and now I'm meandering. I need sleep.

9:28 p.m. Showered.

9:49 p.m. I Skyped with Rob and got news about home. Marina moved in with Barb, Rob's Mom visited
finally for Christmas, and April's Mom will feel better soon. All good things. Praising Jesus in Jesus Name, Amen! God is Able! EDIT: I watched prison shows...I had a fascination with them. Aaliyah came home and we played games on my phone before heading to bed.

Tuesday, December 23, 2014

Top Of The Morning.

8:29 a.m. It is the top of the morning & I just woke up from a series of dreams which I can't remember.
I had trouble sleeping last night. And that I went on Instagram and played around a lot.
Whatever time I went to sleep it was definitely before sunrise. Still I slept well.

I woke up to Dad calling me. So I got the phone from grandpa and called. Like mom, he was worried about the Christmas presents but I told him not to worry about it. I just wanted to see him for the holidays. He said he'll try to work something out.

I tried doing this outside and it ruined my clean white shorts on some muddy steps but the internet wouldn't work very well.

8:35 a.m. I'm using voice to text function again, because I don't feel like turning on the computer and waiting for it to load and then coming on to write...yet.

8:57 a.m. I just edited the Dream Doctor, with a slight spellcheck, and pushed out a poem for the morning about how I was feeling. Not a bad start. I decided to start carrying around a notebook to write my feelings down, as it can aid my poetry. 

9:02 a.m. I've got my instagram photos downloaded and I'm charging my computer this morning. I wanted to edit Chapter Nineteen but as it says in a certain poem 'Encouragement for the Discouraged' (see my poetry blog in the sidebar)...I wasn't up for it.

9:06 a.m. Over viewed my blog. I'm another day closer to Heaven. Jesus Died, Rose, Saved, in Jesus Name, Amen! God is Able! 

9:19 a.m. Tried to relax and I'm heating up some leftovers. Kinda missing home but I'm another day closer to it...the house I mean. Three days, man, God Willing. 

9:37 a.m. Tried to eat but it wasn't much...chicken sandwich. Washing Drake's carseat right now.. 
 I cleaned my hair again of lice...but mostly found dirt.

10:22 a.m. Been meandering.  

10:56 a.m. I've been watching that 70's show, but not doing much else. 

11:12 a.m. For future reference, I'll stick to watercolor pencils.  I colored in my lineart in my visual journal and it didn't come out as I expected. I'll update my blog of it when I get scans, God Willing in Jesus Name, Amen! Yes, I'm religious. It's who I am.

11:16 a.m. I have some other artwork I did the other day that I neglected to post:

Without reference and drawn in the dark.
With reference and drawn really quick.
12:02 p.m. Did a random and unimpressive drawing...doodle.

12:09 p.m. Tried reading but I'm feeling too tired. I think I skipped my meds too. Oops.

12:26 p.m. Took my meds and such. Went to lay down and I feel a bit recharged.

12:31 p.m. Wrote another short poem about the screaming baby lol.

1:26 p.m. I put real effort into a drawing and now I'm taking a break, Oi. Not as high on the stamina as I used to be.

1:49 p.m. I've been re-editing the eighteenth chapter of The Dream Doctor which is going well. I should be ready to form a manuscript someday, to edit this as a whole.

2:03 p.m. Just had a brief walk with music and selfie taking, none of which I saved. Also, had some spicy fries, lol.

2:20 p.m. Drew some more and took a break. I'm really happy with the activities that have gone on today.

2:42 p.m. I'm between rest and Instagram..or was...really. Wrote another poem. I don't like feeling like I've done all I wanted to do and also feeling like I don't want to do anything else. It bothers me but at least I got it out because I couldn't even word that feeling properly in my head a moment ago.

5:00 p.m. My goal to sleep until five o'clock actually came true. i got up and ate spicy fries, chatted with DJ, and had tea. Might go back to sleep....

6:32 p.m. I've been drawing Rapunzel for over an hour and really need to take a break.

6:37 p.m. The camera phone does not make it easy to take a photo...often rotating it wrong. But picture taken and break taken...a long one. Picture MUST be darkened. Rapuzel property of Disney, by the way.

7:26 p.m. Finally!! A drawing I completely approve of. I took about a 20 minute break and then finished the drawing in less than a half hour. God Bless, Jesus Loves, Lives, Saves! All Glory, Praise, Thanks, and all things be to God on the Highest forever and ever in Jesus Name, Amen! God is Able!

7:55 p.m. Got help hunting down the remote, then enjoyed a crackling bonfire.

8:52 p.m. The steak dinner was delicious, the tree and presents got set up, laundry is going, Roseanne is on, and I'm ready to retire soon.

8:57 p.m. Edited the Dream Doctor for a few minutes..chapter eighteen. It was worth it.

9:26 p.m. Finished editing for about another half hour.

9:35 p.m. I can add pictures to the journal later but anyway, I think I finally got chapter eighteen edited the way I wanted to...for now. After that, I'm on God's good humor as always. I can move onto the final chapter next and I hope to start editing my whole book over again with the new plot. Lord knows it needs it, lol.

9:56 p.m. Showered, cleaned and ready to end my updates! 

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